FREDERICK's AUTOBIOGRAPHY 2

2010-07-12T00:24:00.001-07:00

So the first ever World Cup held on African soil is finally over. Congratulations to Spain for being Champions of the World. 1 month and 30 days of excitement, anguish, attention and controversy finally have a conclusion.

This probably sums up what the 2010 World Cup was all about.

:eek:

KING PAUL

What makes the World Cup so special? On a personal note, it is special because it only comes once every 4 years. Every 4 years, the changes in my life are massive. During the last world cup, i was still looking for people to help me place my bets but 4 years later today, I am able to do it freely. I really do not know what will I be in 2014. I will be 24 by then.

So this major distraction is over, I skipped school today but there's no need to provide any excuses because nobody will believe anybody is sick today. The battles in school will be tougher and tougher but I will face it with renewed resillience. Oh well, what a tough week this is going to be.So I have drawn up a couple of aims for the next few weeks.

1. Not to be late and to be present for all Chua Hai Eng lessons
2. Not to be late and to be present for all Balbir Singh lessons
3. Not to be late and to be present for all Jessie Tan lessons
4. Hand up 90% of my tutorials!

i just have to find strength to stand up against my challenges although i do not know where to gather it.

I need something to look forward to.

2010-07-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

2010-07-10T10:21:00.002-07:00

Yes i know many of you have seen this before but i just saw this during my GEMS lesson a few weeks ago and i like it so much! So don't mind watching it again!

Could I say the worst is over for me? No, I can't.

Well, life has been a little bit better and i am more relaxed now but still, everyday remains a mystery.

It's going to be a very treacherous week coming up and i know its going to be a hard hard battle.

Sun Tzu says, "Put a soldier deep into enemy's territories and when he realised he have no choice and nothing more to lose, he will fight to his death"

I must be a soldier and i am fighting for my own cause.

2010-07-07T10:43:00.000-07:00

Nothing seems to be going right for me so far. Life is simply making a mockery out of me.

I had been feeling a little bit better, just a little bit better but then again, it seems like none of the problems have been solved. I've seen what i should not see and I cannot say what i want to say and I can only eat what i want to eat to a certain extent. ITS A JOKE ISIN'T IT?!

I've been trying to draw positives and just try my best to look for the light but no, i just can't seem to find it.

Sometimes it's really best to be ignorant because knowing and seeing some things could be so heartbreaking. Well, I just have to blame it on myself being too emotional.

I just do not know how much i have left in my tank.

Thanks to those who have been offering words of encouragement and i must emphasize that i am not trying to gain sympathy or attract attention because i don't need them and all i want is a platform to vent my frustrations.

2010-07-05T00:37:00.000-07:00

Just when i thought my life could no longer get worst, it just did. Bad things simply comes hand in hand.

You see, i actually cannot state everything right here but i feel worst than crap now. How much more a human can take? Nothing, absoutely nothing is going right. Bad news and bad things comes in pair.

I have to beg and plead and to me, that makes me a loser. I hate losing my dignity but i have to do that for some reasons. Being a student nowadays is tough, really tough.

I hereby declare that i am at breaking point. I used to tell others, tomorrow might be better because you will never know what is going to happen tomorrow but the question is, HOW DO I GET PAST TODAY?!

To be honest, this morning i really feel like crying. I feel like finding a place to scream and vent my frustrations. There is so much in my mind and I cannot sleep at night. There is simply nothing for me to look forward to.

I do not know what I did to deserve all these. I love to help others in whatever i know and can do well, agree my friends? I give up my seats to elders when i take public transport and I love my loved ones, just that i don't express it in words. This is truly the lowest point of my 2010.

The only positive factor for me now is that it gets so low that the only way now is up. I just have to soldier on.

2010-07-04T10:28:00.000-07:00

Shit just continues to rain on me.

1. ITouch spoilt
2. Spectacles almost broke
3. Laptop exploded

All this in the space of 2 days, this is really shit.

Sometimes, it really frustrates me. It really does. When i wanna give my sincere best, i can't. I have to see others putting only half my effort and get so close to succeeding.

Time is not on my side, some things cannot wait and I know I have to act fast but on the current situation, I CAN'T.

People say don't wait till it becomes too late and yes, i am afraid. I am sure this will be one last huge sincere effort and I really don't wanna be disappointed and anguished.

2010-07-01T10:52:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, i really wished time could stop and sometimes i really wished i could choose my poly course all over again.

Nowadays I really dread going to school.You know, every single day since school reopen, I've been lying on my bed before sleeping and all i think about is what the hack will happen a year later. When i wake up, I think about what will the lecturer teach today? How's my retest gonna be in 2 weeks time? How am i going to cope with the tutorials?

Sounds weird right? I can say i absoutely ignore my studies but here i am letting it revolve around me. Well, i guess the real reasons were not STUDIES and marks itself. Education will not kill me but factors around me possibly will. Sometimes, I am so sick and tired and I just feel like taking a few days break from school.

Fortunately, today was fine. It was still a rather productive day which passed by well.

So for those who have yet to choose your poly course, please do it really carefully, if not you will just end up like me, SUFFER FOR 3 YEARS AT LEAST.

2010-06-29T04:16:00.000-07:00

This was what one of my lecturers wrote at the back of my test paper. This pretty much sums up my results and my effort. Please take note that he spelled "disappointed" incorrectly. hahaha

I have no complains about this. This just shows the amount of effort I gave and this is what i deserved. This is a bloody wake up call but I am not somebody who is going to "emo" over academic results.

I am not somebody who hammers the calculator to look out for calculation mistakes and I am not somebody who is going to contest the lecturer's decision to not award me any marks for any reasons. Afterall, I probably have no reason to do so.

"You better buck up Frederick." I can only say, yes i will if this is something i could do and i am interested in. However, sorry no. Lecturers simply do not understand. If you are not interested in soccer at all, you are just going to tell me "what's so interesting looking at 22 men chasing a ball?" It's just like i am going to tell you "Who the fuck studies about walls, ceilings and whatever? Certainly not me!"

They don't understand I cannot visualise diagrams and they don't understand I simply can't draw. This is simply not my forte and in fact, it is my weakness. I don't blame lecturers for scolding bad students like me and i fully comprehend their good intentions.

At the end of the day, it just comes down to myself. I am not one who thinks that with no education, you are deadmeat. Most importantly, I know that I am not stupid and to me, that's comforting enough.

2010-06-23T02:18:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since i felt so geniunely happy. :)

I have decided to take a break from the World Cup. I shall watch it for the sake of fun. I am starting to get sick of it and my body is telling me that I should stop it.

Many a times, humans just simply cannot understand each other and because of that "fuck care" is a great virtue.

2010-06-19T12:49:00.000-07:00

Picture Of The Day!

Alright, what a great way to celebrate WATER WEEK @ Orchard Road.

Joke Of The Day!

In math class.

Teacher: Billy, if there are 5 birds on the tree and i shoot 1. How many are there left?"

Billy: "None because the rest will fly away."

Teacher: " Answer is 4, but i like they way u think."

Billy then asks the Teacher: " There are 3 women eating ice cream cones, 1 licking, 1 sucking and 1 biting. Which 1 is married?"

Teacher answers nervously: " The 1 sucking?"

Billy: " Answer is the 1 with the wedding ring but I like the way u think!"

Video Of The Day!

See how a gorilla saved a badly injured boy who fell into their enclosure

and finally...

Quote Of The Day!

You won't realize the distance you've walked until you take a look around and realize how far you've been.

2010-06-16T15:44:00.000-07:00

Day 6 of World Cup have just ended and it has certainly taken its toll on me. I am absoutely tired and I looked like a panda with my dark eye-rings growing rapidly. Here I am again not being able to sleep at 6am despite being so tired.

I was feeling rather happy for the past few days and so far, you could say that I've enjoyed my holidays. Meeting up with different friends, played many rounds of mahjongs, spending nights together watching soccer , caught a movie and so on and so on. I felt it was time to bring myself back down to earth.

I started to realise some things and that has brought my confidence down crashing to earth. Once again, I failed in many aspects that i could and should do better. It is a kind of situation where I am unsure whether to pull my hair out in frustration or laugh at my own guts. You gave me that virtual pat on the back and yet I failed. The only consolation I can get is that probably I never had any kind of confidence in these situations.

Frederick does not waste any time on anything or anybody that he is not interested about. The only thing that he still does is his studies as he have absoutely no choice! Once again, things that happened around me have proven this again. Anything that catches my interest, I will give 101%. I tried to think that maybe afterall, I've been fooling myself to make myself happy/self content but as days go by, no, I really don't think so. Trust me, i am dead serious.

As serious as I could be, I do not have a clue on what to do or rather what can i do next. It's the kind of feeling which reads "helpless." I hate to feel helpless and all I could do is to keep guessing and anticipate.

I am definitely better than others out there and I know it but very unfortunately, I am not able to show it and probably people will choose not to acknowledge it because of what i am.

There are some things which is inappropiate to mention here so probably that could cause some degree of confusion for readers who actually bothered to read through my entire post.

It's okay because i realised people nowadays look at the pictures that I uploaded and browsed through a little of what i wrote and that's it! hahahaha

2010-06-12T02:25:00.000-07:00

As the curtain falls for the tests, the curtain rises for the 2010 World Cup finals in South Africa. Well well well, all in my mind was the World Cup while i was doing my paper. This is argubably sport's largest event of any kind. 4 years ago I still remember I was just a secondary school kid who skipped school to watch the finals and get a DC instead.

This is the money that police have recovered after breaking a Mexican drug cartel. This stack of money is even larger than my bed and yes, I definitely want to sleep on it.

Finally, its time to relax without any guilt but good times don't last and just when you thought your tests are finally over, the next one is coming up in just less than 8 weeks.

2010-06-09T10:54:00.000-07:00

Once again, it's been proven that if i have no interest or liking to something, nothing can motivate me to turn that around. Absoutely nothing.

I have the lost fire inside me to do well for my studies apparently. Life is a struggle. :(

Why all the things that I am studying have to be my weak points?

2010-06-06T11:49:00.000-07:00

It's really funny to see different people affecting my life in diffrent aspects.

How can i let somebody which i have no liking to revolve around my life? How could I let that person infiltrate my life and affect me? It's time that I should show some hostility but I know not much. I don't like to be hold back when I am about to go all out but i know i can't in this situation. I can only say, do not affect the life of others when you screwed yours. It is a tragedy for a human when he/she have a problem and yet they do not have a single clue on what's the problem. Sometimes when I look at you, you are no longer living for yourself. That is an absolute shame.

I grew up in a family who literally teaches me how to gamble and of course, I like gambling.Well I mean its not a shame, out of 2 Singaporeans, you probably 1 who loves gambling. If not for my own thinking, I could have jolly well ended up with debts at such a young age. I love the thrill of gambling and i enjoy them. However, when it starts to affect my life and mood, its time to start thinking if i need professional help. Maybe its still not as serious as it seems because I still bet with caution and execute self control. Now the World Cup is coming, I am sure that i will be throwing money in because its the World Cup, its an event when people dies from it. Perhaps I am addicted to gambling because that is currently the only way I can prove to others that I am good. Haha, sad isin't it? Yes, sometimes i do laugh at myself.

Whatever it is, my ultimate dream is still strike gold in a Toto and 4D. Above all, I believe in a thing call destiny. In any way u can think about it, life is still a gamble.

There's one more thing affecting me but for now, it shall be kept as a golden secret.

2010-06-02T11:47:00.000-07:00

This is the Pigzha Hard meal I had with Yian Pingz Zeh Zeh and Kuan ee Kor Kor weeks earlier. Finally saw Pingz after so long and I also saw Rihui zeh zeh on the train before that so counted I saw everybuttie. It is always good to be catching up with friends you have not seen for a nong time but that's about that.

It's been a long time since I felt this way but once again it is the feeling of uncertainty and probably fear. Just like in a war combat, I can only move in the dark to avoid being seen but sometimes, if you have to be seen, you will be seen. I am just afraid I might be doing too much to make myself to be seen.

I am looking forward to the near future but time is not with me. I believe in fate.

2010-05-28T14:03:00.000-07:00

I did not have the intention to make these photos public but since it's already been made so by another friend, I shall just make good of it to show everyone the consequences of speeding.

I have survived an absolute horror of a car crash with 8 others. It is surreal that these only happened to me just 4hours ago. I am not going to explain how it happened but there will never be a good ending to have two cars coming into contact with a speed of over 120km/hr.

Just take a look at the carnage and to be honest, I really thought I was going to die. I thought I was going to die and I thought my friends were going to die.I always try to think how a person that is going to die will feel and I felt that today but I knew I did not want to at all. In my mind, I thought of my parents for about 2 seconds and that I am going to let them down by dying now. It all happened and ended for about 15 seconds. I saw and experienced a scene that is so common in a movie. Everything was just surreal and all in my mind was praying for our car not to overturn and to come to a stop.

Miracuriously, all of us survived and only one suffered minor injuries. What were the chances after seeing the damage of the cars? I simply could not believe our luck and I knew somebody up there did not want to take us away. We still have some unfinished business left here to complete and achieve.

As i am lying on my bed and typing this, I am thinking that we could have easily be lying on a hospital bed or even a casket instead. I am always deemed to be "scared of death" whenever i am sitting in a speeding car with my friends. I always remind them to drive safely because yes, i am afraid of death. Young men with raging hormones like us go for thrills but i hope whatever that have happened tonight will kill all those hormones. We shall happily revert to our "World Class" public transport for the near future.

For the plus points, it was the first time in my life that I called 999 and summoned for an ambulance and once again, it was another cool experience. However, thinking that the ambulance took 20minutes to locate us and arrive, I must say we were very very fortunate to have no one suffering serious injuries.

We will all sleep on this tonight and for young drivers who still think you will look cool for speeding in a car, think again because you might just see a tunnel of white light infront of you.

2010-05-22T14:23:00.000-07:00

Never mind if you don't know who he is but his name is Jose Mourinho and just for your information, he is my idol. He's outspoken, special, awesome and is the Zhuge Liang of modern day soccer. I don't deny that I try to copy his personality but of course I know that I can never be like him. Whatever it is, he is somebody I look up to in my life. We might be miles apart but I've learnt alot from just what he says and achieved.

Sometimes it is inevitable that we look back at some instances of our lives and regret why we did not do more at that time. Sometimes, you wonder why you did not appreciate and cherish what is infront of you. Humans are strange, just take teenagers like us for example. When we were in secondary school, we cannot wait for the day to go to Poly or further studies. After we have done that, we all yearn to return to secondary school life. You never hear a secondary school student telling you "I LOVE SCHOOL." When you are working, you wished to just go to school and listen to lectures and when you are in lectures, you wished to go out to work and earn some money. It's just strange that hardly anyone of us can really appreciate what's infront of us.

Whatever it is, time manipulates humans and it will not stop for us. All we can do is to move on with life and hope that we end up with the right regrets. I missed my life in the past because at least I have something to look forward to every other week. Now, I don't even know who to approach if i want to go somewhere. Sounds very much like a sad and lonely life and i know i don't deserve this. Missed opportunities are aplenty and they are part and parcel of our lives. We simply could not speculate what will happen instead if I have chosen this or that path? Luckily, i know at the end of the day, I will still have myself and my brains.

2010-05-19T09:53:00.000-07:00

This is pedobear! I think its damn bloody cute and funny! hahahha, you might wanna google pedobear to find out what is it. When pedobear is coming, just run!

I REALLY HOPE EVERYONE CAN SPEND 5 MINUTES TO READ MY FOLLOWING POST.

Sometimes humans are too smart for their own good. For the best part of my teenage years, I have been trying my very best to understand the people around me. I've learnt to change the selfish perception of mine and I've learnt to accept the weaknesses of others which I think is the most important.

Every single incident, we must learn to look at it in different views. What are the reasons for a particular action? Every single conflict, we must stand in the shoes of both parties.

Take an incident today that happened to me for example, I was buying food back for myself and I ordered a "Cheese sausage crepe". This is a kind of "pay and show your receipt later to collect your food" system. So while I saw my order being ready, the staff shouted out the food's name and before I could react, there was this lady who has everything of a typical kiasu Singaporean rushed to the counter and said "MINE MINE MINE!" I thought okay fine, since you are so hungry and you want the food so badly, I shall let you have it.

So I waited again for my food and Oh, this lady came much later than me in the queue. Then finally it was my turn and by then I knew she collected the wrong food item. I told the staff which was a nice auntie that the lady took my food and now I have to take her order of "Chicken floss crepe". The staff auntie was very very apologetic and she repeatedly offered to change it for me but I rejected it. In front of so many people, she have to let her senority pride down and tell me "Sorry sorry, auntie never check properly, auntie's fault leh" This is service at its best without any GST.

At this point of time, I knew I could not bear to make her remake the food and I also never had the intention. I was fine with the chicken floss crepe but I wonder how will the kiasu woman felt after collecting the wrong food. I told the auntie that I am fine with it and It's really okay but she kept apologizing and she said "NI HEN HAO LEH". Now this really left me wondering, haven't she met an understanding Singaporean like me before? HAHA, it might be a small thing but I felt really happy because just like this, I believed we both felt the warmth of humans. If I'd chose to make things difficult for her, we would both ended up with a :( on our faces.

That brings me to my main point which is RESPECT. There are people around me who deserved to be respected and I remember them in my head and heart. Sometimes my jokes can be very crude but 99% of the time, I make sure I let the other party know it is a joke. I've grown to learnt that If you can never learn to respect others, you can achieve nothing in life. ABSOUTELY NOTHING. You can spend your whole day or week cursing and swearing at everything or everybody around you but what can you achieve? When its time to reflect yourself using your own pee, then do it! For at least now, I absoutely detest people who are rude and are always finding a way to blame others than themselves. If you are trying to be funny by being rude then I can tell you that you are the joke of your joke.

I still have much more to say but I think it would exceed 5 minutes. Thanks for those who spent your time to read my post and I will be glad if you think that whatever I've said made sense to you.

2010-05-17T01:40:00.000-07:00

Today has been a very very strange and unusual day. I wanted to say it was an unlucky day but I think I should not and I could not.

First of all, my first lesson in the morning was held in a blast furnace. The air cons were down and the power tripped at least 4 times. In the end my lecturer was so fed up that she decided to release us an hour earlier.

Having nearly 2.5 hours of break, we decided to head to a nearby coffeeshop for lunch. We ended up leaving as the coffeeshop became like a ghost town. We decided to take a bus to Vivo City and very very stupidly, all 9 of us actually went to a bus stop that do not have a bus service to take us to Vivo City. On our way to the correct bus stop, the bus actually drove past us. So by the time we finally reached the correct bus stop, we were drenched in sweat. In my mind, I was like "KNN WTF SMRJ?!"

After waiting for a good 15mins, we were finally on the way to our destination. For the first time in my life, I had Carls Jr! Well, sounds strange as I never had a chance to have Carls Jr in my life.

Our stomaches were on the verge of explosion after gobbling down that monster of a meal. Then, we were hesitating whether to return for our lessons as we were sure to be terribly late. I was thinking if I should go back to disturb my joke of a lecturer John Chan.Miss him so much because I can only disturb him once a week. After much discussion, we decided to head back to school but as we were about to tap out at Dover, we received a phone call telling us that our lecturer cannot be found! We were already a good 45 minutes late by then and our lecturer is still not in class! What a legend and what legend buddy classmates I have. They all decided to leave and left with no choice, we left as well.

I could not call this an unlucky day because I was released from lessons earlier, had a good meal and had an early day home but this was really a strange strange day.

Thanks for reading my COOL STORY!

2010-05-12T09:58:00.000-07:00

First of all, my buibui lunch!

Durians my favourite and they taste like pure 100% Durian Ice Cream when you freeze them!

I don't know why but once again I've let the fire in me extinguished. Recently, I really have difficulties sleeping and I am not really sure why is that so because I have been absoutely tired. I feel really quite disappointed to have missed 1.5 days of school. I do not want to let the people who have been encouraging me and guiding me down but I guess I am exhausted by the pressure. I am not somebody who attends every lecture and tutorials. I had not been myself.

I need motivation and I need something to look forward to but I am not really getting it. I am so tired from my current life but hey I am no emo kid here. I just feel, perhaps it's time for a major overhaul in my life.

I have many things to say to different people but in all cases, it is not the right time yet. I will have to say what I need and what I want but I shall wait for the correct time.

This cannot go on and after I finished blogging this, I know I will return stronger because what doesn't kills me, makes me stronger.

Just notice how many "I" I used.

2010-05-09T04:17:00.000-07:00

These really cracks me up.

Well sometimes life really comes to a point when we need to ask ourselves who are we living for. Here I am doing some homework which I have totally no interest in. You can argue that nobody likes homework but try doing something which bores you to death and its so tedious. I am only looking at it because I do not want to let my lecturer down.

It's funny isin't it? Most of us actually cannot do what we like and want. It all depends on how well we do for our studies. It's really funny that books shape our lives. Many of us have talents that cannot be shown to the fullest. It's such a pity but I am determined not to let studies shape my life.

It is mother's day today but for my whole life, I've never said Happy Mother's Day to my mum. Don't be like me and remember to thank your mum on this day. I believe all mothers are great.

2010-05-07T07:26:00.000-07:00

HARROWS everybuttie! Today moii ish gonna brog in a welly cute way hokay? I think many of chiu oleady cannot understand the first sentence riaos.

Yesterday de yesterday, moii ish ghost watch moobie wib Boomz Kor Kor, SotongPweencess Mei Mei and Glace Zeh Zeh.

We ish watch the IP MAN 2, it's welly welly naise! Moii ish watch till so englossed that I poured popcorn on peepur. Bai the way, IP MAN becums stronger riaos, during part 1 he ish say "我要一个打十个!!!" In part 2, he neber say anything but he ish "一个打一百个!!!" I think Part 3, he ish gonna be becums even more powderful.

Moii ish ghost school and keep cherrenging moii crassmates to fight but they say moii ish Master Hung so they ish dunch dare to fight moii :(

Everybuttie who watched IP MAN 2 ish starting to brink their eyes hard hard, sho farnie. HAHAHAHAHA

Hokay rahhs, I think many of chiu ish read till brur brur riaos~

Moii this post ish inspired my flen Kuanee, http://hi-bye-hi.blogspot.com/2010/05/hiee.html

Hectic weekend coming up.

2010-05-02T01:57:00.000-07:00

My home-made comfort buibui food.

This is really some great enlightenment.

Alright I slept at 6am and i was awake by 9am because of some terrible noise. I shall not elaborate anything further due to sensitive issues.

I have been feeling out of place, just a weird feeling like my soul is not in my body. Sounds freaky but I am still breathing normally. In short, I'm just not feeling good. I am just starting to realised that life can never be a bed of roses and life is no longer a joke. If you know me long enough, you can see the transformation in my blog. My blog used to be funny and entertaining but it has now became a serious, personal diary of mine. Definitely, I lost plenty of readers and some clicked the "X" button after reading less than a paragraph. However, I have no regrets or whatsoever, as long as there are people out there who are willing to read what i write, i will write on.

At this age, responsibility and pressure is really starting to get into me. I used to be very selfish but now, I think I am always there to help my friends if i can. Honestly, I have demons inside me but I know that these demons will help me in the future. We all need that little bit of ruthlessness to survive in the future.

2010-04-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

Okay, I think this is funny. You can laugh at me after seeing this if you want, HAHA

Today was really a frustrating day, ever since I chose my 3rd year option, I knew it was going to be a tough battle ahead, a treacherous road to walk. The first week went really well but coming to the end of the second week, I really felt very frustrated. The amount of drawings we need to hand in per week, the things we need to do every week, it is scary. I have to admit I am afraid of what's coming up ahead.

I started with alot of fire inside me but now, I am afraid. I am starting to regret my decision but then again, is it a time to regret what I chose? I don't dodge a battle but I am somebody who cannot find any passion and motivation in doing things that I am not interested in.

Nobody can deny that I have been more hardworking this semester but I am afraid I just cannot sustain it anymore. Circumstances around me are just not going my way and I am downhearted by that.

But, It's okay, I believe that I will pull through this difficult period. It's fantastic to see people around me giving me encouragement and they actually knew what I can do. I just need the support from others to keep me going.

2010-04-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

This is really funny to me AT LEAST. HAHA

Well, if you read the papers and follow the news closely, you will really wonder why students are taking their lives so easily. Secondary students, tertiary students, university students and as long as they are students, they have a chance of commiting suicide. There was another suicide case this morning at AMK where the victim jumped from the 25th storey.

Failure to handle stress, relationship problems, family problems, victim of bullying and any problems we students faced. Are these reasons good enough for us to take the plunge?

It's really disappointing and to a certain extent scary. Every few weeks or so, you will read about a person who is about the same age as me committing suicide.

I would say we probably have to blame it partly on our education system. We grow up with our parents telling us "IF YOU DON'T STUDY, NEXT TIME YOU WILL SWEEP FLOOR!" Then you go to school and these nerds and geeks start to taunt you, "EEEE YOUR RESULTS SO LOUSY, NEXT TIME YOU SWEEP FLOOR LA!" If that's not enough, your teachers will start to jump on you. We have seen how competition in studies have broken friendships apart and they have certainly turned us into a hierarchy. However, in actual world, is it true that people without qualifications cannot survive in the future? After speaking to so many people in the workforce, I realised you will have a way out somehow.

Talking about love, I think it is stupid to commit suicide over it AT THIS AGE. At 19 or 20, what the fuck do you know? Yes, we may feel that we cannot survive without this person or whatever but that is because we have not or rather we refused to meet somebody better. It's amazing to see how teenagers chose to disappoint their parents instead of giving up on their "love".

In any case, RIP

2010-04-22T10:15:00.000-07:00

We looked so young and adorable when we were still teenagers. HAHA

For the record, I've fully attended all my classes for this week and it's the first ever time I've done so in my entire Poly life. To some, it was a norm but to me it was an exceptional achievement.

For the record, I've paid 99% attention in a Construction Technology class for the first ever time in my entire Poly life. All thanks to Balbir Singh! What an intimidating man!

I spent 2 freaking hours looking for my facilitator today. I walked all over the school under a sweltering heat of 35degrees celsius and with my super duper heavy laptop to look for him. I think I sweated away 5kg during that time. In the past, I would just tell myself FUCK IT and I would have went home but not today. Frustration almost got the better of me but I thought otherwise in the end.

I have a new philosophy in life and that is to sacrifice. I will sacrifice anything and anybody to get what I want. It's time for me to make decisions like an adult, it's time for me to grow up and be like an adult. In this phase, there will be people who will play an important part in my life. All I hope is that these people can be more intelligent and stop posing me with stupid questions. It can get really really frustrating.

People have been coming up and telling me "You can do it!" It just gives me that extra adrenaline rush and encouragement to keep me believing and to move on with life.

So I will also tell those who think they can't do it that "YOU CAN DO IT!" as well.

I am wondering if i am just fooling myself or maybe there's really something...

2010-04-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

Today was a unbelievable, happy and cracking day. I can hardly find any superlatives to describe what happened today.

My attachment have ended as of today. I feel a kind of sadness in me or rather, a reluctance to leave. It's an irony as anyone who knows me well will know that I absoutely hate attachment to the core.

I've gotten a grade which I thought I totally did not deserve and like what my friend said, the company actually paid us to let us learn.

To be honest, i was feeling very very emotional when everything have ended. New friendships were made and some I will cherish much. I was feeling so touched for everything they had done and prepared for us.

Which GM will interact with his ITP students so much like ours? Whatever opinions he had of me was absoutely spot on. The encouragement he gave me was so precious because the belief he had in me was much needed. I was shocked but I was glad because I always know somebody out there will know who am I and what am I about. I always believed in myself and these are the encouragements that will keep me going strong in my ambition.

At the end of the day, the ones who don't deserve anything got their deserts. They say life is unfair but I would say life is funny. You wore a mask for 6 weeks and tried so hard to make sure it don't drop but in the end, others already knew who you are. Being rude and dumb is a thing but being unable to accept the useful criticism of others simply shows how nincompoop you are.

So, school is lurking and after this amazing experience, I have grown as an adult and I am armed even better for the battles ahead.

2010-04-15T07:07:00.000-07:00

I just don't like the feelings of being bossed around and I don't understand why some woman want to turn a workplace upside down and into an unhappy place. It only depicts plain stupidity.

Technically speaking, just 1 day of ITP left and I can only say I am very fortunate. I learnt so much and although I will not get a fantastic grade, I will still leave with new friendships which I very much appreciate and new priceless advices and knowledge.

I enjoyed myself last night even though it drained almost every bit of my energy left. I am sleeping less than 24hrs a week! Making new friends is a kind of happiness as well.

School is just round the corner and suddenly I feel like staying for another 6 weeks of ITP.

Got to post this before everyone forgets about it. Congratulations Mandy once again and wish you have a blissful life ahead.

2010-04-09T07:49:00.000-07:00

A meal prepared by my superiors at my workplace.

Tell me, how many of your superiors cook up a meal for you during attachment? This is not the only time. I can only say I am very very lucky.

5 weeks down and just 1 left. It is such an irony that I am starting to miss this place knowing that I am going to leave soon. Being in a workplace like this allows me to see the way human behaves. Kindness, hypocrisy, unreasonable and intelligence are the norm. Everytime I get to talk to different people and everytime I learnt something different. Talking and listening are great virtues.

Come to think of it, It is another great blessing in disguise for me again. Everytime I receive a setback, I will gain something much better in return.

There were countless times in my life that I have received insults, criticisms and suffered indignity. To be honest, I have always chose to swallow it. I always believed that one of these days, I will be able to prove everyone wrong. I have absolute confidence in myself.

Humans are selfish in nature and if they have a piece of meat, they will tend not to share it with you. I will look for greener pastures and somehow, I can feel it coming.

2010-04-04T04:37:00.000-07:00

Finally met up with some of my classmates over the Good Friday holidays amidst some disappointment. It was nice to finally to be able to meet them up but it was also me who had to do some non stop talking.

Cafe Cartel was okay but the portions were too small in my opinion. I like the sauce and it actually resembles the sauce you take with your peking duck.

Headed to Andersens for some ice cream afterwards before we made our way home.

Sadly, that was the only highlight of this seemingly long weekends. For me, i have been just working, sleeping, working, sleeping. It's the same routine over and over again and i am so so sick and tired of it. I really need a breather but it is just 2 weeks more before I revert back to school life which is going to be another tough battle.

Sometimes, It's just so frustrating staying at home not knowing what to do.

2010-03-27T23:17:00.000-07:00

I took part in Earth Hour 2010! Anyway i bet everyone will have difficulty seeing what is going on here.

Well, okay, I was part of my attachment company's Earth Hour program and we stayed till 10pm on a Saturday! There was nothing special and in fact, we were spending most of the time walking around and chatting away. For those wondering what does Earth Hour looks like, simply off your lights tonight and you will see what i saw.

Many people say I've lost my pride and so on and so on. I do not deny that I could have done more but I did not forget that I could land myself in a worst state. It was definitely something hard to swallow but sometimes you just have to.

Finally, half of attachment is down and over. Another half left and I am hoping for an even better half. Unfortunately, not everyone goes to work with the same mindset as me. Just have to move on and hopefully at the end of this 6 weeks, we will all grow to become good friends outside this workplace.

2010-03-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

Mayim again for the 2nd time in 3 days! I am somehow a mini Mayin fan these days and I must say they serve good food. I love that Durian Egg Tart.

My enthusiasm for ITP have literally died down as 2 weeks have passed. I am just feeling more and more tired. Perhaps I am a little tired of all the stupid things that is going on right now. However, I know I still must stagger through this increasingly difficult period.

Nevertheless, I still have quite a number of experiences which I can take home from this attachment. For example, some of the bangla workers invited us into their room to have lunch with them. They treated us to their prawns and drumsticks and I must say they are absoutely nice people. How many of you out there actually can share a meal with them? It was a priceless experience no matter how the food taste.

Sad to say, life is gonna be trickier and tougher but I will make it.

I missed my classmates too. Can everyone stop being inconsiderate and let's miss up as soon as possible.

2010-03-12T07:28:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone! It's been a long time since I last blogged and simply because I did not have the time nor energy to do so. Attachment have sailed past 1 week and I am immensely satisfied with the situation so far.

Just a brief introduction for everyone, I am attached to a worker's dormitory which has high quality facilities and the best living conditions for foreign workers. Over this week, I have made some new LOCAL friends and the staff there was close to excellent. They let us learnt whatever we could and we were respected and treated like humans. Compared to my previous attachment, they are two worlds apart.

It has also been an eye opener. The things we see and do are absoutely priceless. Like for example

I "half repaired" a wall fan today.

Of course, in a dormitory where a maximum of 20 workers lived together in a unit, unhygeiene conditions are bound to surface. However, the management keeps a close eye on the cleanliness and maintenance.

I can tell you now that the China foreign workers are the worst, most unhygenic, most barbaric and the most selfish.

Just count how many rice cookers they used. It's almost a rice cooker for each person. The banglas only needed 3 rice cookers for the whole unit.

If you think this is very bad, I can tell you this is only a small area of their kitchen.

Despite helping them to maintain their unit, they still entertain you by shouting and screaming at you in frustration. I really do not know what is their problem and I really think they sucks.

anyway, so much so for the barbarians, today i was telling 1 of my itp friend that I want to understand girls better and she told me that she dont understand guys as well. So the conclusion is, " nobody understand humans"

2010-03-07T09:03:00.000-08:00

Sumptous food i had over this weekend and I met up with friends and everything and yes, I am well prepared for the start of my ITP. All negative thoughts had been eliminated and I am quite looking forward to it.

6 weeks is not a very long time but it is not exactly a very short time either. All I hope for is just a good working enviroment with nice people around. I am just resigned to be a coolie for the upcoming weeks. However, this is something that nobody can escape and that does not exclude me.

Many people wished me good luck for ITP but I don't really understand why. I am not going to casino but i am going to work! But well, got to appreciate it. So thanks everyone!

2010-03-05T13:52:00.000-08:00

Peking Duck and Suckling Pig from Ion!

You know, for me, It have come to a point where i asked myself, who is/are my best friends? It's skeptical to call friends around me my best friends. I am not a person who are afraid of losing friends and I am not afraid that I have no friends either. Honestly, wherever I go and whatever I do, I will make new friends easily.

I used to have many good friends but what the hell is wrong with all of them? Some go crazy and get paranoid for no apparent reason, some have weird habits and actions, some became stupid, some have found their other half and off they go and some found other friends. As we start to drift apart with these friends, new ones come along. As a sentimental boy/man, I definitely missed the good times I had with them. Of course I will try to look for greener pastures but at the mean time, I am simply pissed off and quite disappointed with some of the things.

It's funny when I made one huge effort to go down to town alone to get something for a friend who truly deserved my efforts but well, till now, I still couldn't get the gift across. I do certain things to make myself feel better and to let the other party knows that I appreciate whatever that has been done. When my sincerity don't get appreciated for whatever reasons, I feel disrespected.

Once you are in my good books, I will keep you there but if you do or say something that makes my mind eliminate you, I can assure you, you will not be back. It's strange because I don't waste my time on anything that I am not interested. So if my mind can't accept it, neither can I.

Nowadays, when I want to go somewhere I need to think, hey who can I call? I don't mind going alone and in fact, I love to be alone sometimes. Sometimes, when I find good food and tries to find company, I couldn't get any.Even if possible, I got to start spamming smses or plans get distrupted every now and then. It's really disappointing. There are people who appreciates me as a friend and I must say a Thank You to you but there are people whom I appreciate very much as friends who are treating me as a tool or a plant or a piece of cloth.

The worst thing I cannot accept is when I helped somebody to do something, I don't get appreciated.

2010-03-03T11:16:00.000-08:00

Curbed my strong craving Nasi Lemak with this last night.

So, hello everyone! It's been a long time since I last blogged.

Today is a day I will never forget. I've probably never been so happy and excited about something before. To be honest, my hands were literally shaking with disbelief. My body could not cope with the overwhelming euphoria. Life is funny you see. You wake up and bath in the morning but you will never know what is going to happen to you later.

I've always said life is a gamble and today and I guess i am right. I stand by my stand stronger than ever. This is the beginning of something i will seek to continue. I guess many of you are confused now but it's okay. There are people who knows what i am talking about.

My last paper falls on tomorrow and I have about 3 days of holidays before I start my attachment. 6 weeks seems very short but to me, it is going to be forever soon. I just hope it will pass by with no troubles and I look forward to the next reopening of school.

2010-02-25T09:01:00.000-08:00

I broke a personal record of not sleeping for 48 hours.Do not get me wrong, I stayed up to watch soccer rather than studying. I went for my exams without sleep and then to Peifen's house for steamboat and gambling and then to Qingwen's house for further gambling. I lived life to the fullest for 48hours and i can gurantee you, it is not a nice feeling.

It is strange as sometimes you feel very very sleepy but sometimes very awake. However, as time wears on, you know you are approaching the end. I thought the lorry was coming at the moment before i slept again. I guess i would never try that again.

If you guys wonder what i do during the night when i don't sleep, i can tell you i am actually watching something educational. I love Air Crash Investigations and after watching the entire series 1 to 5, I must admit i have absolute fear in taking an aircraft again. The reasons why planes crash can get absoutely ridiculous.

For those who are interested or absoutely bored,

Actually, I think anyone will be interested because it is not those boring documentaries but instead, it is actually very surreal and dramatic.

Other activities i do in the night cannot be revealed =D

I also want to urge everyone to place a bet on tomorrow's $10m toto draw. Buy yourself a dream, buy yourself a chance and buy yourself a hope. It don't hurt for you to just place a $2 bet on it. If your excuse is "I don't gamble!" then i can tell you, this is not gambling. This is BUYING YOURSELF A HOPE.

2010-02-23T13:02:00.000-08:00

heh heh heh... She's so cute hor?

Just couldn't get to sleep and in 1 hour time, i will be off to school for my Econs exams. Well, I thought I was well prepared but no, there's many things i cannot understand. Econs truly requires understanding and that is why some of the photocopy machines couldn't do well.

Anyway, sometimes it is unbelievable that why people chose to be losers. That is giving up before even trying.Well I used to be one academically but i promised myself to try and not to be one again. You know, i am a person who don't likes to lose in anything that I want to compete.However, it must be worth competing. To me, education is not even worth competing.

I absoutely hate losing but sometimes I must accept defeat because only defeats makes you learn something and you will improve from there.The worst thing is that you do not know what is wrong with yourself.

Ever since I sorted out my heart out, it has been empty. It's sad to always see my world revolving round a girl. I do not want to be like that but I have no choice. This is me! The girl I love will always be my achilles heel, I really don't understand that. Having said so much, I have not found the girl yet. HAHA

Okay it's getting ridiculous probably because i am starting to get drowsy. Off I go to school now, goodbye!

2010-02-20T08:31:00.000-08:00

My Super Belated Birthday dinner!

So we went to this place called Mr Curry at Central to have our dinner. So naturally, Mr Curry serves curry and naturally, we had curry. Err, not too bad for the first few mouths but you will slowly feel sick. Anyway, thanks guys for the treat. Special thanks to Wanling for the birthday card as well. I am honoured!

2010-02-17T10:39:00.000-08:00

heh heh heh... I love yang chewrens!

It's been an absoutely boring chinese new year so far and a very very frustrating one. I do not know what is the problem but it seems like, nothing around me can be decided and nobody could be decisive.

You know there are many occasions during these few days which I felt like screaming the magical 4 letter word into some of my good friend's faces. Already being so frustrated with the boring life i have at home, I still faced many repeated calls for change of plans and some totally stupid actions from some people. It's really really frustrating for me to keep changing this and that, calling somebody and asking them if you can make it tomorrow and bla bla bla and then at the end of everything, i get to find out that the whole thing won't happen.

AND THEN.... They cannot be decisive! They just can't give you a yes or no answer. That's the worst answer you can get. I don't understand what's up with "SEE FIRST".How is that an answer? If you SEE FIRST and everyone else starts to SEE FIRST, we will end up SEEING OURSELVES.

I am just god damn frustrated and angry that everything I'd planned and wished to happened hasn't happen.I've got a pretty bad temper too but I just kept it in check because i knew i got to be patient. Last year's CNY was not so bad, there was still some gatherings and so on. This year? Totally nothing. You wouldn't want to think about what's next.

Finally, for people who wants to talk about stupid things with me, please get lost. I do not have anymore patience to deal with people like this anymore and this really irks me. When I tell you something once, take it and accept it without excuses if not, don't blame me for being rude the next moment. I am an Aquarius and yes, i absoutely detest people disagreeing with me.For imbeciles, don't fret and worry about something that did not happen and is not happening, if not, you will pay the price yourself.

2010-02-14T10:30:00.000-08:00

Introducing to everyone my good friend!! Say hello to him alright!

I think I hardly can find anyone who disagrees with me. There's hardly any Chinese New Year atmosphere this year. Probably the exams are commencing and there are many people who like me, does not have a valentine.

In the past, I looked forward to every CNY because to be honest, it's a massive cash boost to people like me.However, this year, I don't think the amount of money meant so much anymore. To be honest again, I have many wealthy relatives around me and I don't deny that I get quite alot every CNY. In exchange of these, I have to endure the usual nonsense by relatives. Every year, i just turn a deaf ear but this year, I just feel bad. I rather give up the money to shut them up. A simple example will be them saying I AM A VERY QUIET BOY WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO TALK.

This year, I managed to witness,feel and listen to some mean and ugly stories which totally shook me up. I don't wish to elaborate too much but to everyone out there, if you are not confident in your love relationship, don't ever get married or rather give birth to a child. Divorce cases are on the up and out of 10 cases, 7 are requested by the female party. A divorce tears a family apart and who suffers the most? It is the child. Social problems, lack of family concern/love and many other stuffs. It will forced the child to grow up faster and become independent but it is far fetched from being a good thing. Marriage is a relationship that should last forever and based on what I saw, I won't let the word "Marriage" down in the future.

2010-02-12T05:57:00.000-08:00

Well oh well, finally half of the tests are over and we all can catch a breath for the upcoming chinese new year at least. It is going to be a long break before we sit for our next paper but well, time flies. It has been a hectic week and I am just glad and relieved that it is over.

Went to Upper Thompson to have Prata late last night. They claimed they have the crispiest prata in town and I would give them the benefit of doubt.

Super huge Murtabak, my stomach felt uncomfortable till the very very next morning.

Bandung Dinosaur!

There's so many things I wished to say but I shall just wait for right time and opportunity. Oh wait, I wonder if i will ever have that opportunity.

finally, Happy Birthday Yingpei!

2010-02-11T05:12:00.000-08:00

Alright, It is my 20th birthday today and I wasn't abit excited about it. Main reason, I had a tough paper today. Every aging year comes with new responsibility and tougher challenges. That is something that you cannot be happy about.

So my classmates celebrated my birthday for me. Not forgetting Shini who shares the same birthday as me! I have to admit I am the one who do the usual singing of Happy Birthday for others and I felt rather out of place when they did it for me.It's been years since I blown a candle on a cake.

The ice-cream cake(mudpie) that Peifen bought all the way from Island Creamery. However, it melted due to poor and lousy storage from the auntie in foodcourt 1. It's kinda wasted.

It soon became LAVA instead of ice cream.

Our group photo.

I would like to thank everyone who made the effort to wish me a Happy Birthday. An even further thanks to those who made the effort who try and make things happen and an even special special thanks to Peifen who went the extra mile to buy a cake despite having many things to study. I really really appreciate all the kindness from humans around me. There is no words that can express my complete graditude.I am really touched.

I don't know why but I just feel so frustrated today.

2010-02-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

Approximately 7hrs from now and it will be the start of the exam period. The start of the exam period also signifies the end of the semester. 2 years in Polytechnic flew past and I could gurantee anyone that it was no breeze.There is no consolation as every upcoming battle will be tougher and rougher. I was chatting with some of my classmates via SMS and MSN about the upcoming test and some of the things they do and say really really irked me even though it was not my business to some extent. The poster above is for them. You might think it is crap since it's coming from me who have atrocious results. However, losing sleep and being a zombie on a regular basis to study is certainly not the way.

However, I am missing the M and half the A. No doubt, hard work plays a part but once again I have to share this with everyone. "An education isn't how much you have committed to memory, or even how much you know. It's being able to differentiate between what you know and what you don't. " Simply means, do not be a photocopy machine. I have seen tons of people in my life being photocopy machines and the worst part is that they actually think that they are geniuses.

Don't get me wrong, it is just something that I always put across to my classmates. I have so little interest in what i am studying now and that is the most i can do. All the best to everyone!

2010-02-03T00:47:00.000-08:00

For almost 2 decades, I've been to my grandma's house for countless times but never did i knew that an enormously huge mansion nearby named the Ng's Mansion was owned by Singapore's richest man.You must see for yourself how big is that mansion. Mr Ng Teng Fong passed away yesterday at the age of 82. Read up the papers and news and he showed that he was a truly humble man despite his success.

He is currently the world's 87th richest man and he owns a stunning fortune of US$8billion which is S$11billion. He is the owner of Far East Organisation which builds your shopping centres, hotels etc. He also owns Hong Kong's 3rd largest property developer Sino Group which employs 9000 employees. A property magnate always avoid the limelight. He never accepts interviews or expose himself to the media because he was so afraid that he would be kidnapped and murdered. He feared that once he's gone, his businesses will all faill and collapse and his family will be finished.

However, what a truly humble man he was. His favourite food is the $2 wanton mee from Newton and he was once spotted packing lunch up to a flight. Several of his employees have also came out to testify that this man had no airs despite his wealth and he was a very nice and polite man.

He worked 18hrs a day and he loved challenges. He will sometimes not sleep at all just to solve the problems present. You could say this man worked to his death.He dedicated his life to what he was doing and he succeeded. He was commited to something which was worth it and I thought that showed intelligence and logic

However, come to think of it again, he did not really have a chance to enjoy his wealth isin't it? In anyway, i was thoroughly impressed by this man. He reflected true intelligence.

Today, my lecturer said something to me which was more of a myth but it was something i certainly wished that it will happen. To be honest, I dreamt of it, thought of it and planned to be. Of course, this is no say say matter and true blood and sweat must be shed. I do not know what the future holds but I will stand by my words and I am certain I will realise my dreams and keep every single one who looked down on me and my family quiet.

2010-02-01T02:24:00.000-08:00

Everytime I say do not judge me by my academic results, I meant it. Once again, I showed that I have valid grounds in saying this. I understand why people doubt my ability but i do not understand why they doubt my intelligence. Furthermore, some of these people lacks genuine common sense. However, I am not blaming them at all considering their terrible general knowledge. They sure have not seen much of the world.An education isn't how much you have committed to memory, or even how much you know. It's being able to differentiate between what you know and what you don't.

I am sensitive towards this kind of things about me because I have tons of people who looked down on me and I have to prove them all wrong. Some people might think I am acting smart but I can tell you, I really think I am smart. Perhaps it was due to the fact that I grew up with tuition teachers and primary school teachers telling me and my mother that I am a smart boy. How smart am I, I don't know but I am sure I know what am I good in.

In my life, there are some people who I will owe them a favour forever. I always wanted to show my gratitude but it's simply not feasible.

Some things that happened recently have literally shocked me. It is absolutely ridiculous and I will brand that as plain stupidity. So much so that i have nothing more to offer except for a few headshakes.

2010-01-31T08:54:00.000-08:00

Today I had 2 rude visitors who came ringing my door bell early in the morning. Usually i will feel angry but this time, no.

It was a chance for me to go back to where i came from. After everything, including an injured nose, I felt it was well worth it. Then , I realised there's something we probably missed. We missed the arrogance. I grew up with the arrogance and I love people who looked down on me. A simple comparision and I could see the problem. Go back to where you came from and you shall see your own problem.

It was good to catch up with old friends and i will try to join them more on Sunday mornings.

It's going to be a breathless week but I will stay the same. I will stay calm and collected and anticipate what's coming up.

2010-01-29T06:59:00.000-08:00

I've just realised it's been a long long time since i last blogged. I would sincerely like to apologise to my blog which makes a part of my life. Well, simply shows how busy I am this week. I hardly had any time to think properly! So there was a little time to spare today.

After much debate and consideration for a budget place that serves nice food with air condition, we headed to Just Acia.

This was my fried chicken set but later on i had Fried Salmon, Spicy Chicken, Teriyaki Chicken on my plate as well! My classmates treated this like a buffet but well...

We also ordered a side dish. This is the Sian Tofu... I asked the waitress how many pieces do they serve for a large serving of very sian tofu and she lectured me. WOW

Headed home soon afterwards.

I came across a meaningful quote and i am going to share it with everyone here.

Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches.

This simply shows the beauty of simplicity in our lives. If there is a problem, simply remove it. Why does humans have to always complicate things? Our minds are complicated because we complicate our minds. If you don't like something, don't do it! However that again could only be done to a certain extent in this country. Yes, we all have priorities and dreams to chase but to me, it is important to keep a clear mind before you even know what you really want. Do the things that your mind will feel comfortable. Take me for an example, I don't really do things that I am uncomfortable with but sometimes, i still wear a "mask" and try to hide my true emotions. However, how will i really feel? Will i feel happy? No, I don't. Keep things simple and do things that you feel comfortable with. However, the real problem is, how do you know what is the problem? I will leave that one to yourselves.

2010-01-22T08:19:00.000-08:00

Went for first ever site visit today. My phone spoiled in the morning because somebody messaged me and asked me to help her buy a bottle of mineral water. HAHA. Was rather late in the end but still made it. The boots made my legs hurt like hell.However, it was rather fun! The company was very generous as about 40 of us had free Old Chang Kee breakfast.

Headed to Island Creamery Burger Shack for lunch afterwards. Very sad no photos to show :(

Bought 2 cakes home from breadtalk the other day. After eating it, I conclude their bread can talk but their cakes are mute.

The other other day, went to Novena to have the rather famous Ayam Penyet. Fried Chicken was rather good and their chilli is seriously potent. My friend had swollen lips after having too much of it.

I'd been very disappointed with how things are going. It is definitely not the most ideal. It seems like everybody in this world have a mask on their faces. What I am trying to do is to remove the masks of people around me. Obviously, I've failed. One paves his/her own way, along the way, you could meet people who guide you along and advise you and your road ahead will become clearer. However, you can remain stubborn and chances are, you will fall and fall badly.

2010-01-19T06:12:00.000-08:00

Just when you thought the devastating earthquake was over and order can resume, you are so wrong. These are the after effects of the earthquake in Haiti, one of the poorest countries in the world where they only earn an average of US$2 per day for a person. Supplies and medical help cannot reach fast enough and people are going crazy.

The looters do not care a single hoot about the police.

People fighting over loots, food and whatever that helps a person to survive.

So far 200,000 are afraid dead, 75000 are buried while 1.5 million are without shelter. Is this a test from heaven? Furthermore, scientists have also warned that an earthquake-tsunami that flattened Banda Aceh in 2004 will soon be repeated with similar impact. 2012 feels so real and closer now.

Just when i thought i will be okay if i give my best, i was wrong. Now, i know i need to give more than my best.

2010-01-18T00:34:00.000-08:00

Queued for an hour before we were admitted into Ichiban Sushi. I officially declare Sakae Sushi as the worst sushi chain stall in Singapore.

Ichiban Sushi actually sells bento sets that are quite affordable and they are super filling.
I forgot the name of this but is chicken with musroom with cheese + chawanmushi + miso soup + soft shell crab + fruits and rice.

Felicia's chicken or pork cutlet with cheese. Looks good!

After the hearty meal, we headed to Ice Kimo for some seemingly good ice cream. We were recommended to order the ICEBERG which will be more worth it.

8 scoops of ice cream plus 5 kinds of toppings. However, strangely my friends hated toppings. A seemingly fantastic creative idea turned really bad.

Iceberg fallen. It's a mess after the ice cream melted.

Their peppermint was way too bitter and minty and after eating the peppermint, we could barely taste the other flavours. Thier durian was smelly but in a way that it tastes fantastic! It is the only plus point for this shop.

Finally, the birthday boy Duck! Hope you like the bag and the knife.

I had mixed feelings when people started to doubt why i chose QS for my 3rd year course options.I felt a little bit angry with a little bit of anticipation of such eyebrows. However, I know I cannot blame them because they did not understand my rationale behind my decision. QS modules have never been my forte and I struggled the most in perhaps the entire cohort. In the past, I already made up my mind on choosing FM.

After much consideration and some assurance, I finally decided. I am not afraid of any regrets. From the first day I entered this course, It was already a regret.What more regrets do i fear? These 2 years have been difficult but nevertheless, I survived so why should I fear the last lap? Whatever it is, there will be more demands for QS. I fear for my future as well thanks to the stupid ah tiongs.I am not sure if anyone will hire someone with a lousy GPA and I am not sure will I even work in this line.However, i feel that we should always plan the best for the future.

One or the other choice, it was a difficult and painful decision to make. I am going to be seperated with some of my classmates for sure.Life is all about making painful decisions and here is one. It is going to be a risk for myself but I feel that I am prepared to accept the challenge. It would be a sensible choice for myself as even if i do not get into QS, i will get into FM which will be fine with me as well.

2010-01-15T08:18:00.000-08:00

Once again, another natural disaster unfolded. It seems like whatever we've watched in the movie 2012 is coming true. This was an earthquake that caused unimaginable damage and took a reported 100,000 lives in Haiti. It was a true human tragedy.

The carnage that the earthquake caused

Even god can't save them.

The problems don't end here, the survivors are losing their minds as humaniterian aid could not reach in time.Haiti is an extremely poor country and the airport could not handle the huge number of flights coming in.If that is not bad enough, the country's prisoners have escaped after the prison collapsed.

Wherever I go, there will be countless people looking down on me. They will look at me and say "What can this oversized boy with extremely hilarious academic results do to me?" You wouldn't want the answer because I could do something to you from left, right and the back. Of course, I would not do something like that to somebody that I consider as my friend. There are a few people who knows who I am and what I am all about. Just once in awhile, somebody will say something positive about me and that is enough to keep me going. Personally, that is enough to confirm my own ability. I may not be the best doing something using my limbs but remember, god is fair.

2010-01-12T07:43:00.000-08:00

I've finally came to realise or rather justified some things today. Humans can indeed be very mean and scary. Yeah, I can be mean and scary to you as well.

It's sad or maybe disappointing to say that you don't understand the people whom you meet almost everyday. Until today, it's still a mystery. I must say I failed my principles because my aim was to understand everyone around me.I want to know who and what they are. I needed to do this because I used to be narrow minded and get angry or frustrated over very trivial matters.I want to accept people for whoever they are and that means accepting their weaknesses. I've come to realised that this is an impossible task. Humans are so unpredictable. The moment you think they are good, they will show you how bad they are. Some, are people whom I do not even want to analyse and understand.

I am not saying I am the best and yes i do admit i have my own flaws. Sometimes my mouth do not match my heart and mind but at least I feel uneasy when I do something that is not right. I can see for myself who treats me the best with their sincerity and who's not. I really wish I could know them more but sometimes, there's a limit or barrier. It is rather saddening for me to say all this today.

This world is unfair, I do not need to emphasize that. Money is the root of evil, I do not need to emphasize that as well. Today, I saw something which divides the rich and the poor. I do not deny that I am poor. Yes, I still have cash to spare but not much. I am not in poverty but I don't deny that my family conditions is not the best.Sometimes when I do not have much to spend, I will just stay at home. I do not hold grudges on why my parents did not earn enough money for me. Anyway, this country makes the poor poorer and the rich richer. It's a difficult nation to live in financially.

Look, poor and rich people actually have their own pressure. Poor people will think about how to foot bills everyday while rich people think about WHAT IF others are better than them? Their pride is worth more than their fortune. Today, I've witnessed an incident of plain stupidity from our supposedly more matured adults. Sometimes, I want to laugh badly because it's a joke. Poor people are poor for various reasons and they should not be discriminated. I am sick and tired of being discriminated along with my family just because we are poor. That is why I am determined to prove many wrong and make money flowing in in the future. I will not forget this episode but I will remember people who helped me along the way.

2010-01-11T08:14:00.000-08:00

Tonkatsu Burger with Fries

Went to Island Creamery's Burger Shack to try out their burgers. I felt it was pretty good as the price was affordable to peasants like me.The food served was pretty decent as well and I must say their fries were the best I ever had.

Other than that, I laid my hands on PS3 and I must say the graphics were truly impressive!

Finding it harder and harder to wake up for school these days for i don't know what reason. :(

2010-01-08T02:06:00.000-08:00

Credits to Channel 8. It is such a meaningful picture.

So school have restarted and I have troubles waking up in the morning. I am not a big fan of sleeping but somehow, someway that motivation to wake up is waning.

Life had been pretty ugly but well, I will prefer to call it as usual.

Almost every intelligent person who play basketball or football will have in their minds what they are going to do in the match later on. The moves, the goals, the passes will be flashing through their minds before even the match started.

I think I used to be able to prove others wrong when i am on the court.I used to pull off a little or two surprises in the past but now, I simply cannot do it anymore.I always ensure I give my best albeit some confidence knock. The best thing i can do now is to read the game. I always believe nobody could do this better than me and I will still stand by what i think. It's very unfortunate. It may sound like a serial drama but I do have images of me injuring my ankle flashing in my mind everytime i am about to step onto the court.

Plus the gruesome videos that I always watched on how badly sportsman can actually break their ankles, I am always engulfed in fear. I do not know how much have my ankle recovered but I cannot remove the fear. I cannot forget how much pain I was in. It may sound dramatic but I am being absoutely honest.For once, I understand why some people never really recovered from their serious injuries.

Exercising is a must and I will continue to do so.

Hopefully, the weekends will be exciting!

2009-12-31T02:12:00.000-08:00

2009 have came and passed by quickly. It's going to end in a few hours time.

Time flies indeed and we grow with it. There's only about 40 days before I will leave my teens and hit the 20s. Growing up is sad and difficult. For me, every increasing year comes with a heavier responsibility. Nevertheless, I must say I matured over the year. Many times, I handled certain situations badly.I changed my perception of life and I started to accept people for who they are. (There's still a few type of people whom I still and never will accept)

We never know what's coming in 2010 but I am quite sure we are going to suffer in the coming years.We need a change, a big change. I feel that many of my fellow teenagers do not know or have interest about current affairs. Many also do not understand that the newspapers we are reading are a type of propaganda.This is a serious issue which will affect everyone of us in the future.It's shocking to see the high cost of living have forced our fellow Singaporeans out of the nation as they slum into poverty here.The way this country is going is only going to make the rich richer and the poor poorer.

That is why I absoutely detest to add one to my age.NS is edging closer and 2 years is a long time.The irony is that we need to serve 2 years of NS to gain our citizenship but Gong Li and Jet Li can just ask for Singapore Citizenship and get it.What's more is that they don't even live here.

It is a fact that we need to fight harder and harder for survival in the coming years.
2010 is a big year ahead and hopefully ITP and my studies will go on smoothly barring the fact that I am not willing to be anyone's puppet.

2010 promises to be a tough year.

2009-12-29T11:15:00.000-08:00

Well, this could be one of my last posts that you will see food photos inside it.

Had something different on Boxing Day as my cousins and I decided to have Thai cuisine at SuanThai

Boil Squid with Special sauce and REALLY GREEN curry

Stuffed Chicken Wings, 1 cost $3.50 and we each could only have one.

Tom Yam soup is a must have when you have Thai cuisine. Doesn't look like a tom yam soup to you? Well, a clear soup broth is the most potent.

They were trying to fill our stomachs with free flow iced lemon tea and they gave us jugs of it.

Well, today is quite a shocking day because something I always don't really care have struck me.It's a kind of you-don't-know-how-you-feel feeling.

As clear as a crystal, I am sure all of you know I am a food fanatic.I don't deny I love food.To me, food is something more than eating. It's almost like an art to me sometimes. However, that may have a price for me to pay.

It's just 2 more months before the end of my teenage life.It is at this age that I realised, health is the most important.Medication adds to the weight of the baggage that you or your parents are already carrying from this increasingly ridiculous place that you are living in.Medication will only be a temporary solution or a catalyst to solve the problem, the real deal is to find the root and exterminate it.

I was sad, worried and for awhile I feared the worst.Then, I felt it might not be that bad afterall. Whatever it is, I am still convinced I am a healthy adult to be but I will just be concious to put what into my mouth.

The only difference is that after today, I will be leading a much healthier lifestyle.This, I promised myself.

2009-12-24T20:00:00.000-08:00

Merry Xmas everyone!

Yes, it is christmas today but i am not excited. I am not a person who will join the crowd at Orchard so very fortunately, i spent my Xmas eve with Xinghui, Kuanee, Corina and Geneviene. No complains or whatsoever as we went to have good food.

Headed to chomp chomp with Xinghui and Qingwen for dinner initially.

Jigen Wings, Stingray, Suger cane drink.

Nice Carrot Cake

After that, headed to Geylang for more food! It was quite a funny trip somehow.

People raved and raved about the frog porridge and I felt the praises were justified.Barring the extremely small frogs they used, everything tasted wonderful. There's no doubt that I will be back for more.

If you think that was the last thing we ate, you are wrong!

Walked a distance to have you tiao and soya bean drink. Thus, ending a day with great food.

This is satisfying enough for Christmas. It is just another day and I don't see why the need to celebrate Christmas. Sounds solemn but it is sad but true.

2009-12-22T11:50:00.000-08:00

Thanks to Xinghui for a ride on his father's car, we headed to AMK for some Western food for supper. Just to fill you up a little bit and to whet your appetite if you have not taken your meal.

This is actually the after-meal snack. It is peanut with egg and cheese pancake.Sounds and look nice but i don't like it.My parents do like it though!

Pork Cutlet.

Chicken Chop with Fried Rice.What a bright looking sauce..

After the hearty meal, we went to lower Seletar reservoir to romantic.

Poor Xinghui injured his father's car. However, it's an honest mistake.Let's move on.

Happy things aside, I would like to share something more solemn.

Well, not many people know i have an elder brother as I rarely share it with others.The sad thing about life is that we cannot choose how are we fated to live, I could say what a difference will my life be if both my brothers are perfectly healthy and around.They will be 25 this year. However, this is something we cannot choose.God wanted our lives to be this way and we have no say.

The chinese believes some of us are born into this world to repay the sins you made in your last life and my poor brother is one living example. I do not show much love or affection for him because I never felt attached to him.However, he is my brother afterall and seeing him to go through all the pain and sufferings hurt me as well.Seeing him being admitted to hospital once again is not a nice feeling.

The thing is what a strong will he have to live.For 25 years, he could not see anything, he knows nothing, he cannot even express himself. All he could consume was just milk.However,it's probably his strong will to live that earns him another chance to be in this world everytime he seems as though he is going to leave. It was simply suffering that he has had for the past two and a half decades. A person should never deserve so much suffering but i just couldn't understand why the strong will to live.Every day you live on, you suffer another day.Why do you still choose to live?

2009-12-17T08:53:00.000-08:00

It's time to wrap up a week that is full of good food for me.

Headed to AMK for New York New York once again.

The onion rings were very good and the sauce was excellent! I love the peanuty taste of the sauce.

Here's the food we had. Steak with Shrimp combo and Chicken with Shrimp combo. Very very juicy!

Hello Jermaine!

Hi Wanling!

Aloha Cone!

It was a simple dinner yet satisfying. I am always impressed with their service but it's just a tad too expensive for students like me.

Would like to share this email i received from a friend which i found it meaningful and true to some extent.

Money can buy you a house but not a home

Money can buy you a bed but not sleep

Money can buy you a clock but not time

Money can buy a book but not knowledge

Money can buy you a position but not respect

Money can buy you medicine but not good health

Money can buy you blood but not life

Money can buy you sex but not love

So, money isin't everything.

But.... Still, money is important!

2009-12-15T20:42:00.000-08:00

Barring all the initial unhappiness, it was still a very much enjoyable outing in the end.

After much debate, we settled our lunch at Suki-Ya. I was disappointed at first that I was going to have a $20 yong tau foo buffet.However, the shabu-shabu and the sauce was definitely the winner.

Unlimited supply of sliced chicken, marbled pork and beef. I couldn't eat as much as i usually could for some reasons and I have a headache after eating them.

I don't want to have fake smiles so i never smile.

Hi Rongyuan!

Headed for ice cream at MOF after the meal and went home swiftly afterwards.

NYNY coming right up tonight!

2009-12-14T11:04:00.000-08:00

Today, it was a stomach full of disappointment for me.

We left school happily on the last day promising that Tuesday which is tomorrow that we will be free.However, I am left very very disappointed.It was bad news after bad news after bad news.

Saying that you are free on Tuesday means that you must make the whole day free for this class outing.You have no excuses or whatsoever unless you have an emergency.If you really have the heart to make the outing, you will not make any excuses.People don't understand that if we cancelled the outing tomorrow, we will never meet up again during this holidays.It's strange but for this class to get together for an outing is almost close to impossible.It is also strange for me to say all this because just only a few months back, you will not even see me for any class outings.

However, things have changed.I realised that this is a class of people whom I can never find anywhere else.With them, i found a kind of joy that I never had before.They can go to great lengths to help me and without them, I would certainly have given up my Polytechnic life.

To be honest, you guys are quite a difficult bunch of people.It's always so difficult to organise something and get everyone involved without any complains.Come to think of it, 10 weeks including our next exam period and this holidays and we will be seperated.Problems will surface, i am sure.DPFM 2A21 might never be the same again.People just don't understand this.You can say we can still meet up for lunch or whatever next year but what are the chances? Everyone will have our new classmates and our things to do.

Some of us may not feel as attached to this class and thus showing a lack of interest to appear.I will respect that because all of us have a right to priortise our friends.Even me myself do so.However, look at the situation. I mean whenever we are together, we enjoy ourselves right? Different friends offers different type of fun.I could use the fingers on my hand to count how many outings can we have in this upcoming 10 weeks.

This episode will end here.I hope everyone who reads this will not be offended because it is a message to every single one.Read this and forget about it.Most importantly, do not bear any grudges.

2009-12-11T22:17:00.000-08:00

The exams are finally done and over momentarily. I could say this time round, I put in my best effort.Don't be mistaken, I did not wake up at 6 in the morning to study and I did not glue my eyes to my notes for the whole day.It's just that I did not give up for any of the papers.I just hope that I can pass every paper but once again, odds for that is 1/500. After every exam, people rejoiced and they always look relieved. However, the end of an exam period signals a new and tougher battle coming up. The relief is very much shortlived and here we go again, preparing for a new battle.

Talking about happier things, we headed to Island Creamery for some ice cream after our paper.

This is the mudpie which looked nice initially but i still prefer cheesepie.

Applie Pie and Nutella ice cream.

Why are all of them so act cute?

I did not have enough so i bought home a tub of apple pie ice cream.It's the best i ever had.

Holidays starts now and I am getting the rotting feeling again. I really do not want to rot my holidays away.I want to work!

2009-12-07T08:58:00.000-08:00

You don't walk into a place that is on fire but i am already at the entrance.

What is sad is that we humans simply do not cherish what we possessed.

You can do everything for a girl before you win her heart.You can buy her roses everyday and send her messages to tell her how much you love her and everything but after you won her heart, you stop doing those things. After your breakup, you start to wonder why didn't you do more?

This can be explained as simple as throwing your pencil on the table and you go somewhere else.The pencil is with you and you have been using it for the past 3 years. Suddenly after you returned, your pencil is gone.Then you start to panic and will search up and down for it.Only when it's lost, you will start to realise how important that pencil is.

I guess many of us simply don't realised how important it is to cherish what is precious to us.

2009-12-06T06:53:00.000-08:00

Don't be mistaken, I did not take part in the marathon. I was there as a cheerleader to support those runners. I am paid to do that by the way.Seriously i wondered why so many people pay money to sacrifice their sleep and break their legs. No offence to the runners though, just a personal opinion. Saw a witch and a guy wearing dress running, quite boring and dead initially but fun in the end!

On a heavier note, MST commence tomorrow.It's a sad news because it means half a semester is down and only half a semester left for DPFM 21 to be together.The start of MST also signals the start of an anxiety period.I am not like them because they are aiming for As while i am aiming for Ds.Once again,i have to force myself to memorise and picture some stuffs that i totally hate and have no interest in.

Will keep this short and hereby wishing all SP amigos best of luck for this MST and STOP COMPARING RESULTS!

2009-12-03T07:46:00.000-08:00

For a moment, I thought lightning was going to strike at the same spot again. Fortunately, it turned out differently.

I realised or rather will admit that I still have lots of bad points as a human.Sometimes, our mouth do not match our brain and sometimes we talked too much as a human.Nevertheless, it's not wholly a bad thing.

I could have handled the whole episode better but i am glad that i handled it well.It only shows there are still many things i need to work on to improve myself.

After 19 years, I slowly grew and really appreciate kindness.It's heart warming to receive someone's kindness and helping others indeed brings some joy upon yourself.That is why I make it a must to say "thank you" to every auntie who will clear my plates after a meal and to every good service provider who served me well. People who are kind deserves respect and they deserve much more sometimes.

On a seperate issue, everybody knows MST is just round the corner.Then, the same old problem/situation comes again.People starts panicking and people starts the "competition".Bloggers will put a post up on their blogs claiming "BLOG CLOSED DURING EXAM PERIOD." People will start saying they are not going to use the computer during this period.I questioned their intelligence for that.If the excuse is saving time, one shall not eat, bath,poo or sleep because it's a waste of time as well.

Then here comes the competition, people will try every means and ways to find out how their "opponents" are doing and sometimes they might even say "I NEVER STUDY!" as they burrowed their heads into the books for 16hrs a day.Hypocritical i must say.

Education should never be about others, your studies, your results should all depends on your own effort and own desire.Why compare when we all have our own pros and cons? Grades in school does not reflect wholly on a person's intelligence.In the end, your biggest opponent will still be yourself.

However, we cannot blame the students totally.In my own opinion, the system is the root of the fault.

2009-11-26T07:30:00.000-08:00

The Bizarre Behaviour of Singaporeans
- observations made by a German national who has lived in Singapore for 9 years.

"44 years of economic and material success have spawned some very strange behaviours among Singaporeans. They spent so much to buy a house or flat, furnished it up like a palace, but spent their time outside, most of the time at work. And the maids are the ones enjoying the million-dollar or multi-million-dollar assets.

Then they pay so much, the highest in the world, for a car only to park at home. Too expensive to drive, too many ERPs and car park charges to pay. And they are encouraged to park their cars at home and take public transport, being cheaper and more convenient.

And when Singaporeans travel, instead of seeing the places, they went shopping. The best part is that they would head for the cheapest bargains, buying stuff that they could get in Chinatown or pasar malam, at even cheaper prices. But they are still happy that they got a bargain.

And while the heartlanders are busy trying to make a life here, being told to bust off if they are not happy, which they could not, the rich and presumably very happy and contented citizens are buying up properties overseas just in case they need to make that escape from this paradise.

While many Singaporeans are thinking of jumping ship, or preparing to jump ship, hoards of new immigrants are rushing in to take their place in this paradise.

And to top it all up, they keep complaining about the govt and all the policies that they found unpalatable, but come every election, they will vote and return the govt to power."

That is why sometimes even Singaporeans laugh at ourselves. Just take a look at the morning peak hour rush for MRT trains.When the door open at Jurong East, you will see uncles, aunties running faster than Usain Bolt in a 20m sprint.Usain Bolt runs his best for 100m race for money,reputation and glory but the typical Singaporeans does it JUST FOR A SEAT inside the train.Ironically, sometimes they don't even get a seat despite all their efforts.

2009-11-21T02:08:00.000-08:00

It's been so long since i felt such warmth from a class of people.The class bbq was at least a 90% success and miraculously, the weather was very very kind.I guessed everyone who was present enjoyed and had a hell of a time.I was abit crazy and I shouted till I became hoarse.Towards the end, i did not have much energy left.

We played card games with forfeits and I swear that it was really really very funny.
For example, i have to drink this shiet which had sprite,butter,chilli sauce,tiger beer and seriously don't know what inside.I threw up as soon as it touched my mouth.

I think had to dance together...

and this was the finale. Only thing i will reveal here :

Guy: "My love for you is as big as the sea"
Girl: "Oh so sweet!~"

Finally, the good friends/groupmates who gave me strength,motivation,laughters and alot of help.
Err... I got to admit I looked very fortunate here.HAHA

I think our smiles all looked very alike.I think all of us are funny and fun loving people and to think that we are only 4 months away from being schoolmates instead of classmates is almost like a stab in my heart.They are the ones who gave me a reason to go to school and to hang on but sometimes it is really upsetting to see us not spending more time together.Initially, It was abit like making use of you people but I am not going to let it be that way anymore.I am trying my best to help in whatever I can and to prove that I am treating you guys as my very good friends.

To be completely honest, I took about half a year before i settled into life in Polytechnic.Life in poly was almost a nightmare for me initially but now, i looked forward going to school everyday.When I am in school, i feel very happy as I have excellent company to play a fool and have fun.It's impossible to be good friends with everyone in the class as most of our characters differ.It's also inevitable that some of us will have unhappiness towards one another but since we only have 4 months left together, It's best if all of us can swallow that little bit of anger and "hatred".Just continue with your usual "backstabbings" and gossips and things will pass by fine.We do not need a class tee shirt and we do not some symbols or mascots or whatever to represent us.2A/21 will be 2A/21 and we will be infamous for what we are at best and that is creating a din everywhere we go.

2009-11-19T03:04:00.000-08:00

Today i had Outdoor Learning Class. Sounds very exciting and interesting right?

In the end we have to visit places like boiler rooms around the school to take a look at the air conditioning systems.There was a really huge spider inside there, i swear that was the biggest spider i ever saw in my life. I am going to post it up once i gotten the picture.

Whenever it rains, my school will have a free swimming pool.

sigh... that really explains what are we studying.

Well, tomorrow marks the first official class gathering after nearly 2 years. Amazing isin't it? Personally, i am giving my best to make sure that this outing will really be a memorable and fun one.I must admit that I am disappointed that some people had placed this outing as a second priority.However, i do understand that everyone have their own commitments and own things to do.People don't really realise that this could very well be our last chance to have a full class outing.Well, I may sound like I am a mad class lover or something, but no. I don't really care about some people in my class to be honest.However, since we have been fated to cross paths, I feel this is a chance for everyone to have at least a kind of memory with one another.I am sure, there will be people who will be there tomorrow but with their souls elsewhere.There might even be uninvited guests and it is highly possible that it will be raining tomorrow.(fear not, wet weather plan is in place and it will run provided everyone stays calm and not go mad)
I sincerely hope that the weather will be kind to us and everything else will run smoothly to make sure that this is a fun and memorable class outing.Its our first and probably our last.

I find life is just like a game of basketball or soccer.I love the tactical sides of both games and i love to analyse the decisions that great coaches make.We need to use different strategies to tackle different problems.Like the sport, different strategies are adopted for different opponents.Sometimes, we need to wait patiently for an opponent's mistake to make a breakthrough but sometimes, we need to work frantically to find our own breakthrough.I always believe that if we believe in ourselves, we could achieve things that is beyond our wildest dreams.That is why i always emphasise that soccer is a game of 11 people vs 11 people and basketball is a game of 5 people vs 5 people.We should not fear our opponents just because they are stronger than us.They could be better physically and technically but we as the underdog can make it up with determination,self belief and passion.Once we can do that, we will surely throw our opponents into disarray and from there, victory becomes a possibility.It's just like our life, self belief and passion plays a big part.

I also realised that many people do not make the correct sacrifices.Sometimes, i don't understand the rationale behind the decisions people around me make but then again, if i could understand, i won't be human, i will be god.

2009-11-16T03:16:00.000-08:00

Sister's first time having Ben N Jerry's.Happy and funny to see her being as happy as a small kid. Shini loved the Chocolate Therapy because it looks just like her!

Celebrated Xinghui's Birdday at New York New York.Bad comments about them don't seem to justify because they have a range of exciting dishes! The only bad thing is that their stupid drinks are way overpriced.

Jermaine's tomato and melted cheese on Chicken cutlet.

Wanling's mushroom and melted cheese on Chicken cutlet

Xinghui's Spring Chicken

Finally, my NYNY Pork Ribs.

I don't really want to type alot here. I am very tired and I am going to watch 2012 online now.

2009-11-10T02:41:00.000-08:00

My class's first visit to SP's pizza hut together and it's probably our last time because the staff will probably ban us from going in the future.That is why i probably showed such a sad looking picture from a fabulous meal.

Sometimes in life, we will be in a dilemma. Any decisions you make will cause a huge turn to your life and sometimes, you may have to sacrifice something precious to you.I believe this justified that life is indeed cruel. After you made a decision, you will look back and ask yourself, "what if i chose the other option?" You can never know the answer and that is why it is cruel. I am in such a dilemma right now. I know if i make a rash decision, i might lose everything.

I am enjoying my life right now.There's no need to have lots of money, joy is what a human really need.Money is essential and that is what i believe but money must be handled with care and a touch of genius.However, remember money can ruin you.

Just take a look at the recent tragedy that happened. A father who was heavily in debt because he love to shower his wife with expensive gifts and he lost few hundred grands to soccer punting and shares. In the end, it was too much for him take and he ended his children's life and his own as well.For a man to choose this path, he must be really desperate and despondent.It's a traversty. Sometimes i felt much happier when i do not have any extra money with me.When i have extra cash with me, i will keep thinking on how to increase the money and fear that i will spend away the money but when i am "bankrupt", i only spend what i need and there's nothing more to think about.

Our life is all about the decisions we make and it will be decided with a little bit of luck.Unlike economics when we can calculate and predict the opportunity cost, in life you make a decision and go ahead with it. There's no turning back.

2009-11-04T06:36:00.000-08:00

So, it has been and it's going to be a busy week for me. I won't elaborate on this boring stuff though.

I always complained about how boring my course is and our recent "outdoor learning activity" certainly justified it.

We were asked to take photos of cracks and whatever you find that could make the brickwall collapse.Of course i will not show you those useless and dumb photos but the photographer Shini aka Ebon, used my phone and took over 50 over photos.Ebon confirm never see brickwall before.Notice the brickwall behind the photo.

Here she is, with a bright smile trying to impress Chris. Well, what can i say about Ebon? She run from SP to Vivo City 3 times a week and she climb a different mountain every weekend.She's absoutely crazy. If she keeps quiet in class, it simply means, she fell asleep. If you wake her up and she's hungry, she will scold the crap out of you.She's gonna climb Mt Fuji real soon.

This is Weilun aka Kenny. A crazy fellow who cannot stop shouting. As long as you hear somebody shouting in SP, 90% confirm is him.When I first met him in class, i thought he was mentally unsound and needed immediate medical help.However, he's like me, a Liverpool fan. So, he will never walk alone.

This is the most chio girl in my class whether you like it or not.If any of my classmates not happy and think you more chio, please tag and tell me so.She is the leader and captain of our project group and she oversees a great deal of work but sadly, she never had Ben N Jerry's before. Oh yes, her name is Peifen aka SM. She's the best! 1 2 3 3 2 1 Peifen Peifen all the way!

Then Ebon made use of my phone to take a CHIO AND CUTE photo of themselves in the girl's toilet. Is that what girls always do whenever they see a mirror?

Okay la, they are my groupmates for projects and although our laziness is always there because of Kenny and me, our quality of work had always maintained a good standard with SM and Ebon around.Without them, i will be probably still be in Year 1. =(

I enjoy their company and i think they also enjoy my company right? HEE HEE HEE

2009-11-03T10:25:00.000-08:00

Life stinks when you have no choices.

Sometimes we do not cherish even though we know we cannot do without it. After it's gone or will be gone soon, we start to regret and wished we could do much more.

I am really guilty but what more could i do? 5 months left and let's take every opportunity to make this last 5 months a memorable and happy one.I am most happy whenever i am in school but i don't like what i am studying. Just the companion,the laughters and the warmth of the great people around me will suffice. That is a kind of unbelievable feeling.

2009-10-30T12:56:00.000-07:00

My school has a new tourist attraction. For schoolmates who will never have a chance or make an effort to set foot on this part of SP, this is for you.

Introducing to everyone, SP's very own BOTAK FOREST!

So... skipped gems today and followed my classmates to IMM for "shopping" and lunch.Whenever i mention classmates, it means 2 guys and 7 or 8 girls. Today, Weilun is gone so i am with 7 girls instead.I not handsome so i cannot become a playboy, so I became a "sister"!

I thought we were gonna have a spectacular lunch but i was dead wrong.

After much debate and pacifying, we ended up at MOS burger. It was my first time and I admit I am suaku. I had the Triple Prawn Burger and I thought they took the burger out from the fridge before serving me.Spent a little bit of time over there and ask them many interesting questions. As usual, i tried to stoke the anti ah tiongs flame.

In the end, i concluded, 90% of girls look for rich guys no matter how ugly they are.

Jascinta was very happy with my preachings and scoldings as she said " I realised I learnt many things after joining this class."

Take note that the majority of the class have a big problem without me. LOL

Went to Daiso afterwards and i felt really really lost.As usual, they walked like snails and they get excited over little things.I felt really embarrassed at times as I felt I was at somewhere I shouldn't be. Moreover, my legs felt as if they were fractured and my back broken.

After walking for a long time, some of them left and the rest of us headed to KOPITIAM for dessert. I ate some really sour mangoes but then again, we talked about "interesting" stuffs.

Trained home with TXX and TXX told me many things wor but me is hook the last finger with TXX earlier in the morning, promising to keep my mouth shut. If i never keep my mouth shut, i no need to see my last finger again. However, some of the stuffs are so shocking and some are so funny.HEH HEH HEH! After chatting with TXX, I realised how interesting the human mind can be and once again, i reaffirmd my talent and interest in reading's people's mind.

On a side note, I always tell my juniors to beware of the friends you are making when you go to a Polytechnic.I always reminded them not to let others take advantage of them and to beware of the new friends they will be making. However, it's time for me to admit that i am doing the exact opposite. People might not mention it because i try to bring them joy and laughter in the class and I considered it as a type of "consideration"

*Consideration means the benefit you can give to the other party after they gave you a benefit.*

That i know, will not be enough.As a human, i never like to owe anyone any favours and i will always try other means to return back what i owe. Even if i do not say it out, it's in my mind all the time.Those who helped me greatly, i will remember them definitely and they will be my closest friends.I cannot help much in our studies and that is why such a situation will arise.I am a person who will never leave the people I considered as my closest friends in a lurch and whatever help they need, i will try my best to lend a helping hand.I am really thankful to be blessed with wonderful classmates and lecturers .Sad to say, we are just about 5 months away before we become "schoolmates" instead of "classmates" I think it will be a relieve for some of them but i am sure they will miss my presence in the class! HEE HEE

2009-10-28T08:31:00.000-07:00

I am so waiting for Friday to come not because it's going to be a holiday and not because I am going to eat buffet but its because it is the official release date for FOOTBALL MANAGER 2010!

It's one of the best selling games in the world and i started playing 1 decade ago.Until today, it remains as the best game to me. It's a game that can make somebody lose sleep,breaks up relationship and destroy lives because it is going to be so addictive.However, it gives people so much satisfaction. It satisfied my dream to become Liverpool's manager and satisfied my dream to become a soccer coach.That is why i am only sleeping for 4 to 5 hours a day.I love it!

Looking forward to school tomorrow! Time to disturb my classmates, my "sister" and my lecturers again!

Interesting facts about human bodies..

It takes your food seven seconds to get from your mouth to your stomach.

One human hair can support 3 kg.

The average man's penis is three times the length of his thumb.

Human thighbones are stronger than concrete.

A woman's heart beats faster than a man's.

There are about one trillion bacteria on each of your feet.

Women blink twice as often as men.

The average person's skin weighs twice as much as the brain.

Your body uses 300 muscles to balance itself when you are standing still.

If saliva cannot dissolve something, you cannot taste it.

Women reading this will have finished by now.

Men are still busy checking their thumbs.

2009-10-22T09:07:00.000-07:00

Today got long break because lecturers lazy to teach.Okay i am just joking, first week of school is usually cancellation of tutorials. So we headed to Holland V for more exciting food. Realised once again that the girls in my class are mostly aunties. They walked in crawling speed and they seemed to talk about where to get the cheapest hair cut and where sells the freshest vegetables

After their lunch, we headed to Cold Rock for ice cream~ This is my ice cream of Milo and Cheesecake. Valerie cheated Sister Peifen as they shared a cup but Sister Peifen only ended up eating 3 mouthfuls of ice cream. They each gave me a number for toto and i went to buy. At night when i checked result, none came out.

Then i told Sister i wanted a dragon and koi tattoo.She very kind and she crafted out a koi and dragon using her special tool.Her drawing is very power power one so let me share them with you okay?

See this is the koi, looks nice?

This is the dragon.Looks scary right? Oh, she gave me a diamond rolex as well. She's really a nice tattooist. She created something for me tomorrow. Will be hoping to use it. Thanks sister. Today i blog don't scold you.

First week of school so far quite fun. Everyday make people laugh and make fun of lecturers so they will be good friends of mine and "push" me. I think lecturers are quite friendly and humourous as well.

School aside, I want to talk about something else.

Sometimes people at my age gave everything for their studies, for a sport or for something important to them.Giving everything means giving your best effort and that means you set aside great amount of time and energy just for it.Seriously, i do not understand what's the rationale behind this.By sacrificing huge amount of time and brain juice for something, what do you actually want to gain? If it's not money, i am not sure if you are in the correct path.I just cannot comprehend how some people can sacrifice everything just for that something and worst, they failed in what they want.

Remember this, humans remember you for being first but not for second.If you are first, you are a winner, if you are second, you are nothing.If you want something, aim to be first and be sure you can. I used to think i can say "I TRIED MY BEST" after i failed but right now, i think that's just a lousy excuse. It's an escape from the cruelty of truth.

You can study hard and dedicate half your life to it but by the time you completed your degree or masters or whatever you want, calculate how much you have spent. Just imagine how long can you take to pay back this sum of money.Yes, you can say you will have a huge salary job but how huge is huge and can you gurantee a huge salary job? You can talk about today but you are not sure about tomorrow.

Studies won't and never will be the way out for me. I am not sure how am i doing to do it but i will try to make that day happen. I am only giving myself 1 chance to be a success.I will remember money talks the loudest in this world.

2009-10-18T10:02:00.000-07:00

This was one of my blog post when i was in Secondary 3. You guys will never have a chance to read this. I can't believe how i blogged back then. I was reading through and I laughed hard at myself.

"Hmm...Today morning veri lao kui..carry so many bags wearing sch uniform...I looked as if i am staying in Hougang...Luckily reach sch got ppl help...haha...Tt strawberry...haiis...pass me her oven and told me to bring it..in the end nvr use...haiis...Keg Xim...
After assembly..hear the p talk abt kois..ppl take price we clap clap clap..den go back class...lol...saw courtney gave me cookies...lol..PLUS A Message...Lol..i paisei la..dun wan tell wads inside..hehe...
Luckily my pizza sells well..lol..but i was sweating like...eh..dunno how 2 say la...lol...Ppl see le oso scared..haha...Tmr selling again...maybe next time open restaurant..challange pizza hut..hmm....Name it Folumalarocky pizza restaurant...good huh...?hehe...Sorry i am dreaming..
Dis time really die already la..READING TEST tmr..haiis...jialat liao...anyway today got back report slip...Haha...I was surprised actually..Tt my overall percentage got 49%...Lol..all thx to Mr Isham..He let every1 passed.......lol...i pass means all pass le..sure 1..haha...My humans despite got 68 still not very happy..lol...cos i feel humans is my oly geniune hope of doing well..the rest..haiis..Pai Ti Kong..See if he ans my prayers or not...lol..Maths oso thx to Mr Ong den can pass de..nvm la..at least i noe i wont be top 3 positions again...lol..term 4 is gonna be my last chance..Better buck up abit...Haiz...English cant pass oso..disappointing...But i tink my english and chinese can pass one..lol..next term my art wont be so lucky le...
And oh ya!..Forget to say tt i haf made another new nigerian fren..His name is Kamabu Ng WeiHan.
Today i oso learnt something interesting...I find tt teachers now always use the same technique against us..Well..Today mdm chan is the next hero to stop the lesson..Whenever we misbehave or wadever...the teacher will just stop teaching..why cant all be like mr teo...Like he said,even i am angry or disappointed i must teach..its my job..well..i wonder why other teachers cant do tt...Teachers will also haf mood swings...but i tink like we students,dey are also under stress...but this technique of not teaching when u are angry seems very interesting... "

The fonts are green because I blogged with many different colours in the past. Cute hor?

So yesterday was Deepavali and i spent it working at Little India! The ratio of Banglas to Singaporeans there was easily 20:1. So my job was to give them a lucky draw after they buy the brand of beer i was working for. So i have to keep on repeating myself with " Eh Ah Neh! Happy Deepavali ah!"

I just realised talking with them can make my head go round and round.

As I am typing this, school is on the verge of reopening.When tomorrow was still far away, I yearned for it to come quicker. When it's only tomorrow, i hope it never comes.Well, i guess that's human's nature. My lesson starts at 830am tomorrow but i only sleep at 8am everyday! I really wonder how am i going to sleep tonight. So when the sun rises, another battle to survive another semester smoothly is on again.

I just hope life will be good and I had learnt to see things with a broader mind.Just hope to play basketball every Tuesday and Thursday night as usual and have fun with my classmates everyday and my friends during weekends when possible.

2009-10-13T13:48:00.000-07:00

If you asked me how's my childhood like and i will tell you i spent majority of it at 326 basketball court.For those wondering what/where the hell is that, here's a picture.

There is this group of friends that probably shaped my life.I grew up with them and we spent almost every single day playing basketball. We have "training" every Saturday morning and we created a "team" for ourselves with full sets of jerseys. Erm, that was the "in" thing during that time. Honestly, we were not very bad. hahahaha

The main thing was that due to the long hours I spent playing basketball and my dislike for studies, i failed my exams terribly. That explained why i needed to spend 5years in secondary school instead of 4. However, i did not regret a single bit.

This group of friends taught me alot of things and you could say, they "brought" me up. I learnt to see things at a different angle and i learnt to fight to my death for basketball.We used to join small basketball competitions and i can say i never once failed to give my best. I had no fear for anyone and although i am not the best technically, i could say i was the best in guts. Actually, I have a very strong will to win during competitions but sadly, i do not have a platform to show it and i never will.

Whatever it is, most of us had moved on with life and the basketball court had been renovated. It is so freaking uncomfortable now and the past can never be revived.The basketball court will have a place in my heart forever and i will always remember the friends and memories it had brought me.

Moving on with life, recently we(sec sch friends) have been playing with the uncles at the basketball court at Block 346. Sorry no picture for this and they think we are good children and we fit in almost perfectly with them.

It's a good thing, we do not need to worry when playing with them because they are not hooligans and they are nice people. So every Tuesday and Thursday night, we got a chance to sweat it out. After the basketball session, some of us will have sort of a chatting session with some of the uncles and some advices they gave, are truly useful.It's fate to have met them and 1 thing i learnt today was to WITHSTAND or BEAR.Just always look at the more positive side of life and you will find the meaning of it.Always try to "看开" and you will find that life is better. I couldn't agree much more with this.

I just realised, there are people around me who know what am i all about and believed in me.

2009-10-10T14:04:00.001-07:00

Went out with Duck, George Robert August, Fangxin and Rachel today for dinner. Dinner for them at 530pm was too early, therefore we went to AMK Hub to see see rook rook.

Settled down at this small dessert shop and i had Yummy Banana. Tasted quite well for a banana lover like me.

Alright i will cut the crap.

So we headed to Chomp Chomp and it was people mountain people sea. We waited very very long to find a place for us tp seat. So finally we had a place to seat and we were in a serious dilemma on what to eat.

I was very determined to have the fried chicken wings from the stall "Wings" It did not let me down and i was very satisfied with it! However, other than their Chicken Wings, i reckon other stuffs are for kids.

George August Robert then had this terrible horrible prawn mee.Out of so many stalls, he had to order from this stall whose owner who was able to take a nap despite the crowd.It did not provide any shocks as you can see, the prawn mee had no visible prawns! Amazing!

$2.50 sugar cane juice, don't understand why they need to use such big and heavy cups.Seems style and cool but actually, unless you are super thirsty or you are eating something spicy, you will have difficulty finishing it.

$5 portion of fried black carrot cake. Just tasted OKAY as for everyone of us who had this. We did not order the usual satays, stingrays as we don't feel like having it.

Duck ordered a legendary hokkien mee which we waited for about 30mins for it to arrive and end up he only finished half of it. It was really stressful to eat there as whenever you are about to finish your food, alot of people will start to crowd around your table, silently forcing you to give up your seat.

Anyway, I saw a stall selling pork satay( must try the next time i go back ) and Duck was telling about his experience in China where he had McPork.McPork is called "猪堡包" in China and Duck kept on singing the song for it. I can't find any of the advertisment on Youtube but i found the japanese version!

finally, they went singing and i went back home...!

2009-10-05T10:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, i really wonder why are we still suffering and studying.

So myths, rumours, scientific calculations and predictions have deduced that "Doomsday" or end of the world is coming and the date estimated is on 21st Dec 2012.So what are the chances of this happening? Is there even a chance for such a thing to happen?

It's believed that there will a change in polarity where the south and north pole will switch places and this will cause massive earthquakes and floods everywhere. It is believed that this happened before and it's also believed that earth had been destroyed and remade many times. Come to think of it, i wondered why dinosaurs were wiped out in the past.Not even 1 remained and it must have took something of a mammoth destruction to make dinosaurs extinct. If they can be extinct, we can be extinct as well.

Just look at the signs, Singapore is so damn bloody hot lately isin't it? 3 cases of terrifying natural disasters happening in different places in a day. The Antartica is melting and Maldives and Venice had been predicted to be totally flooded away in 50 years time.

Having said so much, all we could do is to continue with our life. That pretty much makes what I've said redundant. However, it's a fact that we could do nothing to change the situation. Let's just wait for the day to come but if it's possible to confirm this catastrophe, please let me know earlier.

Let's also just hope if mankind can survive and reproduce again, no idiots will go and screw some monkeys to produce HIV.

2009-10-03T02:23:00.000-07:00

Went inside JayBee yesterday to eattttttt while my friends went to shop.

First stop : StoneGrill

Sprite with Strawberry Ice cream!

The raw chicken waiting for the stone to gain heat to cook it!

After you hear the sizzles and apply the black pepper sauce, your chicken is cooked and well done!

My friends did some shopping and we played arcade there for a while. Amazingly, you could smoke inside there! but of course i did not. Further into the night, we headed to the roadside stalls in the alley for supper.

we ordered 2 huge pieces of stingray which had huge slabs of meat and 3 sotongs, 1 plate of LaLas and 1 plate of Oyster omelette! Very very cheap indeed!

Finally went to buy MR BAOZ! back to Singapore.

Friends and family all agreed that it was fantastic. I have to agree as well!

My friend sibei ho chio at the Singapore custom... After a long long delay, we finally got back home.

2009-09-29T02:25:00.000-07:00

Went to Ikea, GIANT last week at Tampines because G wanted to go to GIANT badly. It seems as though she never knew that GIANT is just a huge but seemingly meaningless supermarket.

Nevertheless, we travelled to Tampines with G, Xh and J who made a special appearance. Went to Ikea to have our lunch and you should be amazed at the crowd over there. The queue was like a queue for a $10m toto outside a Singaporepools outlet. However, determined to taste the food there, we were undeterred by the crowd.

finally finally.....

Sounds abit WOLS but this was my first time eating their famous Swedish meatballs and chicken wings. It's been quite a long while since i tasted such good chicken wings.

There's something baffling going on somehow. I realised not many people are blogging nowadays.I scanned through my links and only about 5 or 6 are still blogging as usual. Blogging used to be the trend but what caused the downfall? Exams? Packed schedule? Lack of interest?

Just hope more people can blog more regularly and can help kill off abit of my boredom at home!

2009-09-20T10:45:00.000-07:00

I had not been blogging because i wanted to blog something happy and fun about my life. However, with the lack of posts, you could see there's nothing vibrant in my life so far.

Recently went to as far as Yew Tee to play basketball thanks to someone. Anyway went to eat at HK cafe.

Chicken curry noodles

Hot and sweet Lychee Chicken.

On a heavier note, I feel that I am at the lowest point of my life. I am afraid I can no longer take the stress or whatever you call it on me anymore.

Have any of you felt this way? Sometimes when i sleep, I simply hope i don't wake up anymore.I don't like to sleep but i am so so tired of living.

Nobody can understand what my life is about. You may think i am leading a good and carefree life but sadly, that's not the case.Definitely not. I just hope to return to the past.When everyday i will get $2 of pocket money and that's it. There will be no responsiblity on me and nobody expects great things from me.You understand nuts about this world and that would be great.You will never get to know how shitty this world is and how realistic and stereotype humans can be.

I really hope everybody can stop forcing me to do things i seriously hate or do not wish to do. Yes, i admit i am useless and that is the way i will stay until the time is right for me to prove myself.I don't know how but somehow i strongly believe I will have a way.

I have gain nothing new in life for a very very long time. My life badly needs an injection of new blood.Right now, it had hit rock bottom.People showed a lack of confidence in me and that's one of the most frustrating things that can happen to me.It caused my confidence to collapse as well and at the end of the day, I conclude they were not better than me but the problem remains with the human's mind.I cannot accept whenever people show a lack of confidence in me.

I am someone who feels a sense of responsibility to the people i care for and love.Believe me or not, I will do everything possible to protect them.I am always so so disappointed to lose any of them.

I won't jump off a building or whatever, God destined me for a hard life but God gave me a positive attitude. However, i am starting to feel that alone, is not enough for me.

2009-09-14T11:06:00.000-07:00

I am not talking only about myself but sometimes when i think of it,

Girls have a truly great ability to affect a guy's life.

Guys will do things that they never thought they can ever do it

Guys don't care about others things except for them

Guys lose sleep over them.

Guys do stupid things because of them

Guys lost themselves because of them

In short, they became everything.

Guys can prepare to sacrifice anything for them

whether the girl appreciates it anot, we never know.

Guys can worry and fret about them

whether the girl appreciates it anot, we never know.

whether a guy can affect a girl's life this way, i am not too sure because i haven't seen one case yet.

Anyway this was only what i think after reading through and seeing some stuffs. Only guys will agree with this. HAHA

In the meantime, i just came across something i shouldn't have known or seen but once again, it has left me pondering and my mood had simply plundered.

The End

2009-09-13T08:57:00.000-07:00

Thanks Kuanee and his lao bu, thanks Coneman and thanks Banana for helping out greatly.

I must say what i felt today was missing from me for a very very very long time.

I had suffered greatly for the past week but it's just part of a mammoth effort which is meant to be a secret.I seriously and sincerely hope that my hardwork will pay off.Sometimes, i seriously thought i was going to die but i really hope i can pull through this difficult period for a brighter future.

2009-09-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

RIP LEGEND CONE!

Hope to see you again.

"If you are first you are first. If you are second, you are nothing."

Bill Shankly

2009-09-07T06:24:00.000-07:00

Initially, i felt excited for my attachment but damn, after today, i really wondered how am i going to survive for the next 6 weeks.

I did physical training today as i helped to move furnitures, dismantle a bed and bought tables and chairs to set up our office for 8.Those furnitures were so damn bloody dusty and my nose felt like dropping out now.

Travelling time is about 3 hours to and fro and if you ask me, i will tell you that's a seriously huge waste of precious time.I must work 9 to 6pm on weekdays and I just learnt that we have to work on Saturdays as well. It's unbelivable but i felt this is as if taking my life away.

I called Sister and Weilun straight after work and i felt sad and angry for them as well. Sister tried to act chio but not chio enough to impress her boss so she got scolded.However, her chioness still ensured she have lots of milo to drink.

Weilun sounded like as if he was tortured but i understand it is very tiring.Try standing with those office workers during peak hours in the MRT and i can guarantee you it's a hellish nightmare.In the first place, we were told we were only needed to work from Monday to Friday.Now? Saturday as well and the worst thing is, our pay is as bad as a farmer. We are considered cheap labour and therefore, we are being treated differently as well.They will jsut throw any jobs at you when they do not feel like doing it.

Shini is the best among us. She have pig intestine's soup to eat today and she still can complain. Hope Shini everyday do 5hrs OT.

I simply missed the times inside the classroom.This is going to be such a difficult period of my life.

2009-09-05T10:10:00.000-07:00

I know i fat but recently my friends got nothing to do and they went to my old blog to dig old photos of mine. They said i last time skinnier alot alot and me is believe. You believe? If you don't believe, i can show you evidence.

I last time really slimmer right? :(

2009-09-03T08:40:00.000-07:00

For girls who like to act cute and go "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE" over little things, this post is not meant for you. I am about to show you interesting facts about human's nature.

Facts:

1. Masturbation is a normal stage in growing up, it is perfectly natural for people hitting puberty to masturbate, and there is nothing wrong with it.

2. Masturbation also does not cause bodily harm, that is, within a given limit, for most people, your body can take the stress of masturbating no more than twice a day.

3. Masturbating on a regular basis, that is, a routinely schedule, is better than not masturbating, masturbate every other day actually helps decrease the testosterone level in your blood stream.

4. A decrease in testosterone balances your body’s hormone level that is said to help treat pimple break outs, easier to control anger.

5. Masturbation also increases blood circulation in your body, and oxygen supply.

6. However, controlled masturbation without ejaculation is said to cause harm to your body on a long term basis, it is strongly not recommended to withheld ejaculation as it is said to be extremely harmful to your testes.

7. Do not masturbate for more than four times a day, or three times on a consecutive basis. This causes extra stress on your testes and can cause cells to undergo meiosis (a form of cell division) higher than normal speed, and increases the chance of non disjunction (a form of genetic defects in sex cells). You could be sterile if you masturbated too often (that is more than four times a day. People claimed they can ejaculate sixteen times a day, I just want to call them stupid idiots).

8. Masturbation with normal ejaculation is just the same as having sex, nothing wrong with that within a limit.

9. It is also a good practice for when the time comes.

Myths:

1. Masturbation causes kidney failure?
No, your parents tell you this because they do not want you to do it; it does not affect your kidney and is no where near the causes for kidney failure.

2. It will make your penis grow larger?
No, it will not do that either, people’s penis size cannot be increased (all the advertisement that claims they can is a bunch of fake). Your penis size is set when you finished puberty (usually 18 or 19).

3. It will hurt your penis?
Masturbate (or have sex too often) can bend the shape of your penis to the right or left a little bit depends on if you are left or right handed. However, it does not impede the normal functions of your penis and can be ignored. It does not hurt your penis if you are not circumcised, if you are, lubricating oils are recommended (or you can use soap, two birds with one stone, you can clean your penis whilst enjoy it).

4. Is it unnatural?
No, it is not, ever since men had developed the ability to use their hands, they started to masturbate, some religious group (mainly Christian and Catholic) claims they are a sin, but again, 93% of the male population over 16 masturbates.

If they all go to hell, 7% of the original male population will take on the task of breeding 76% or the original female population.

I believe, for guys, this is interesting. Take it as a form of education.

today i am a very very angry man.I got an awful lunch and then receive the most awful news. I am reposted to Jalan Beenan Kapal for my attachment. Can anybody kindly tell me where the hack is that? SP had actually forgotten to arrange an interview for me and my previous company and now, i have to go to somewhere inaccessible and with a peasant pay. Who can i complain to? No one.

2009-09-01T23:14:00.000-07:00

Returned to Yishun Town during teacher's day and it's truly a saddening sight. So many teachers had left and there were so many teachers whom i do not even know.

Performance was poor in entertainment value i guess.

My Sec 4 form teacher and he's a die hard Liverpool fan! Even he knows Lucas Leiva plays like a headless chicken.

Yishun Town was a great place to be at for 5 years of my life.Strict rules were in place and sometimes i suffered like a cow but still, it was a great school. I believe there's no where else you will find better teachers. I am always lucky to have dedicated teachers around me.Some fought for me and some made decisions that were the best for me.Some gave their best in teaching me and some chased hard after me.I really wished my teachers could do this to me again. Happy Teachers day!

2009-08-30T12:21:00.000-07:00

Be honest with yourself, sometimes don't you wish that you never grow up?

Whatever mistakes you made, everybody will forgive you believing you are young and ignorant.You do not need to work and suffer and you do not need to face the pressure of the current society. You do not have much responsibilities and you get by everyday in a simple way.

I wished i was never 18, i wished i cannot learn driving, i wished i cannot step into SingaporePools, i wished i cannot buy tobacco and i wished i cannot i get into a Polytechnic.I wished i did not have so much responsibility and i wished i do not have so much pressure.

It saddens me very much. A call that lasted for about a minute by someone made such a huge impact on me today. I could say nothing except answering his questions. What can i say to someone who do not know what is going on? All i can blame is myself. Once again, i felt the bite of the pain. You know when someone of his age remembers me so well, it's a kind of fate.Hopefully when he grows up, he will still remember me. For now, i cannot say much to him but i really do hope that one day, i can enjoy his company again.

Happy moments don't last and they will only stay as a memory but sad moments affect you for a long time.

"The worst is to have no target. Imagine you get up in the morning and you do nothing. You enjoy one minute. Then there is another minute. But what do you do next? Can you dedicate your whole life to this? Somewhere within us is the desire to feel that we are useful and that we have some quality."

Arsene Wenger

sorry for the wall of text.

2009-08-27T10:29:00.000-07:00

Today is our first ever class gathering can you believe it? HAHA.

However, most importantly, i really enjoyed myself! I just loved to scold my classmates upside down. It's been a long time since i felt so happy.

According to Ebon Koh Shini, this place is called Sukae Sushi. Alright, the Sukae Sushi here sucks. The chef don't even make sushi and they take a long time to acknowledge our orders and it's very very very warm here.

Let me try and introduce some of my classmates to you guys alright?

This is Shini aka Ebon.Ebon is her name but i don't understand why she doesn't want to use it. Remember what i said about Ebon? She is similar to Sister, they always like to act chio but Ebon is a good friend.Ebon heard that i need a certain tutorial urgently, she is run home and send to me.In the process, she almost got knock down by a car! Good right Ebon? Ebon rocks!!

This is DNB! I don't want spell out if not i am very bad. DNB is very powerful because she can make people cannot breathe.

Finally, this is sister! She damn chio right? Told you she's chio.She's the most chio in my class and arguably my course! Ehhh... I think WHOLE SP! You see today she is dressed herself up as a nurse.Sibei chio hor? She so poor thing, she tried to be a magician and try to swallow a penknife but before she swallow, she was so stupid that she cut her hand with the penknife.Then, she ping ming de cry, ping ming de cry! Luckily cut hand only, she still sibei chio ah!

for my classmates who read my blog, please go to my old blog http://i-will-find-my-way.blogspot.com/ and read April 06 and 08 2008 posts. HAHAHA! Sorry guys, i did not mean what i said at that time.

okay okay, so much so for my class.So my holidays have virtually arrived. I have not completed my exams but i have a 8 days break and this 8 days is my only holidays for 6 months can you believe it? No choice but to get on with life.

2009-08-25T05:03:00.000-07:00

My supper.

Exams had been rubbish so far. The only paper i knew, i got to screw it up as well. However, i am not one who brood over exams and i am not qualified to do so.

ITP results are out and i am posted to Institute Of Bioengineering & Nanotechnology.All my other classmates had been posted to construction companies and i have no idea what bioengineering got to do with me or my course.However, i will gladly take it! Only problem is that, i think i will have a hard time finding the company.

Anyway, just a gentle reminder. This month is a very sensitive month and please note what you are doing. Beware not to just spit anywhere or step on anything.Do not pick up whatever that's not yours. Do not go swimming and many many more. If you don't adhere the rules, don't blame anyone if you see..

2009-08-19T09:48:00.000-07:00

A Chinese man walks into a bank in New York City and asks for the loan officer. He tells the loan officer that he is going to China on business for two weeks and needs to borrow $5,000. The bank officer tells him that the bank will need some form of security for the loan, so the Chinese man hands over the keys to a new Ferrari parked on the street in front of the bank. He produces the title and everything checks out.

The Loan officer agrees to accept the car as collateral for the loan. The bank's president and its officers all enjoy a good laugh at the Chinese for using a $250,000 Ferrari as collateral against a $5,000 loan. An employee of the bank then drives the Ferrari into the bank's underground garage and parks it there.

Two weeks later, the Chinese reurns, repays the $5,000 and the interest, which comes to $15.41.

The loan officer says, 'Sir, we are very happy to have had your business, and this transaction has worked out very nicely, but we are a little puzzled. While you were away, we checked you out and found that you are a multi-millionaire. What puzzles us is why you would bother to borrow $5,000?

The Chinese replies: 'Where else in New York City can I park my car for two weeks for only $15.41 and expect it to be there safely when I return.'

2009-08-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

Why do i always need to contemplate the worst whenever i am doing a test/exam? Have anyone of you been so tired of life like me? Played some basketball earlier on and i felt so good. It's been a long time since i felt this way.Why does so many heart wrenching stuffs want to approach me? I am sure i am not stupid but i just do not know why i always need 1 more chance.

This girl in dress is Shini.Today i blogged about her because i want scold her.She today is go eat Seoul Garden with 2 of her friends then got 1 boy boy think she chio want take number from her but Shini told him, "Sorry, not convenient ah" I hear already is very angry.She like that say means she act chio.Shini you think you wear dress you chio ah? Sister wear dress more chio okay! Sister act chio doesn't mean you must act chio and break the boy boy heart right? Sister most chio in class you must be 2nd most chio in class also is it?! Go reflect reflect okay?! You think if now you is the boy boy, then you think this girl very chio and want to make friends with her then this girl who act chio tell you "Sorry, not convenient ah" How will you feel? Act yi ge not convenient. You think you convenience stall is it? I Thursday see you is confirm give you 1 slap.

2009-08-12T05:38:00.000-07:00

Today, i crumbled under pressure.It was really a stressful moment and with so many things in my mind, stress got the better of me.However i will not allow this to be an excuse.The fact is that i am not good enough for the time being and i will try again.

I really hate growing up.In my case, my pressure is so intense sometimes that i just stop bothering what's happening around me.I am starting to feel paranoid of the things around me.You guys may think since i don't care about my studies, i am not stressful at all but look, it's because i don't really care about my studies and on the other hand, i cannot afford to fail my studies.That is why i am feeling the heat.

Even the closest people around me do not know what is happening to me at home.Sometimes, i am close to a total breakdown.I cannot believe my head is filled with so many things when i am driving.When i think about it now, its scary.I have so many people to prove wrong and when i simply can't, i am not feeling good.

Friends should be a pillar of strength and support for you but i simply cannot understand why friends need to compete with each other.That's one of the saddest things for human beings.Does victory over your closest friends gives you a sense of satisfaction? If yes, you have a problem and you need to question your heart.It's never my intention to compete with my friends but this kind of mentality is instilled in all of us and i realised it's very saddening.It's human nature to get an edge over others but is this really important?

2009-08-10T08:42:00.000-07:00

Recently caught 2 movies

Another classic Jack Neo productions and it was super hilarious! However if you don't understand hokkien, i will strong advise you not to watch.If you do, you are in for a treat.

With a cast of Lau Ching-Wan,Louis Koo and Daniel Wu, you cannot go wrong.Nothing too action packed or exciting but there was a nice plot and the message was clear,if you do bad things, retribution will befall on you.

Went for an outing with my cousins and we had Kushin-Bo for lunch.

Defintely enjoyed myself.

Met up with Yahui, Xinghui & Co to witness the NDP fireworks.

Fireworks was nothing spectacular and we watched it beside a construction site.

I really cannot figure out why China women always refuse to shave their armpits.It's a mystery and it forever will be until one day i see all China woman with a clean armpit.

Just look at her ARMPIT. God damn it, my eyes hurt and my stomach feels bad.This is pure evidence.The question is, i don't understand why those China women who refused to shave their armpit always have a male companion with them.Does all China men accept girls with unclean armpit?!

2009-08-04T09:16:00.000-07:00

This is Sister! She is a very helpful friend, always help me complete projects and tutorials.My favourite hobby is to bully her but i very kind to her on the other hand because i helped her to join Miss Singapore Poly but she shy then declined the invitation.She like to think she chio and everytime act cute then she say i act cute.I is everytime point her middle finger and ask her to close her mouth when laughing because she got abit "bah gey".Sister also looked like "PTMM" .Overall, sister is a very nice friend and should be honoured that i blogged about her.Sister don't angry okay?! Sister ROX!!

I just realised, i am born to prove others wrong.I am not blessed with the most agile limbs but i am blessed with a sharp tongue.Many people looked down on me, i know that and i grew up with that.What matters to me is that, i don't give a damn about what they think of me because i only believed in my beliefs.That's what probably made me very stubborn and firm in my beliefs.When i believed in something, nobody could sway my mind and i mean it, if you try, i will rebutt you or not answer you and that depends if i give a damn about you.

I could have a few breakthroughs in my life but i did not take it because i believed it was not something i really have passion in.If you know me well, if i am not interested in something, i will not do it seriously.It will be a long time before i am able to prove myself to others but i believe the day will come, i really do.Probably because of the desire to prove others wrong, i strongly stand by my beliefs and sometimes i appear to be stubborn.Don't be offended by that because it is just purely me.

I am not sure if anyone think i am dumb just because i have extremely poor examination results, but if you ever think that way, let me tell you are dead wrong.I am smarter than you and i am sure i know more things in the world than you.Don't judge me by what i am doing now and by my academic results because as i said, the day will come for me to prove that i am not useless.In short, academic results only shows 10% of your intelligence.

2009-08-02T08:02:00.000-07:00

Late night movie yesterday and we caught this show.Personally, i really cannot give a rating.It's a horror,adventurous comedy.You will get what i mean when you watch it.For those who likes a twist in your story, you might want to catch this.It's a super huge twist.

Trust is a huge and tricky word.To me, i don't really care if it matters but it's indeed important to have trust.I would like to ask you readers how many friends around you that you trust and can be trusted? If you tell me 5, i think you are stupid.If you tell me none, i feel sorry for you to have a painful life but you are probably smart.

It's scary if you need to take precautions against humans and that is what makes schools such a dangerous place to be in.The irony is that schools is the place where you make friends and find people whom you trust and yet they are "dangerous"

I myself certainly betrayed the trust of my friends before but what about you people? Every single one of you reading this is not innocent either.This is human nature, where everyone naturally wants to gain an upperhand against others.It's definitely a sad thing but if taken lightly, emotions can be dissolved.

It's really really hard to find a best friend.I was asked by someone who is my best friend and i couldn't answer her.I can only answer her if i go all the way back to my kindergarten times.Different circumstances will always change things and change the people around you.Those whom i supposed i am close to have drifted, people whom i had grew up with have drifted and sometimes getting all the guys out is too tall a task.What i can say is that i have some great bunches of friends around, but A best friend? I don't think i have one.Friends come and go but i thought they are a type of affinity and it shouldn't be lost.

The sad thing is there's only one you and you cannot split yourself to meet different people and that is why friends whom you trust will drift apart.To put it in more ugly words, friends are actually all about making use of one another.It's sometimes a good thing but sometimes a bad thing.

2009-07-31T09:13:00.000-07:00

It was a well and truly bad week.

It was just an ordinary look for about 10 seconds but i could feel something was not right.I am the villain.Yes, i was and i don't know why but this set my mind racing back.It was totally something with no link.

I was dazed inside the train, thinking about the times i was happy but on the other hand, worried.For a full 40mins, my mind was occupied by the same thing.Coupled with usual emotional songs i was listening to, couldn't help but felt a little sad.

Life is going to be hectic very soon.The Liverpool day was a one off but i am not feeling good for every single other day.I just wish i can quickly clear my exams, my driving and my ITP.

Something is just missing very much from my life and i need it back.