Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Today, i crumbled under pressure.It was really a stressful moment and with so many things in my mind, stress got the better of me.However i will not allow this to be an excuse.The fact is that i am not good enough for the time being and i will try again.
I really hate growing up.In my case, my pressure is so intense sometimes that i just stop bothering what's happening around me.I am starting to feel paranoid of the things around me.You guys may think since i don't care about my studies, i am not stressful at all but look, it's because i don't really care about my studies and on the other hand, i cannot afford to fail my studies.That is why i am feeling the heat.
Even the closest people around me do not know what is happening to me at home.Sometimes, i am close to a total breakdown.I cannot believe my head is filled with so many things when i am driving.When i think about it now, its scary.I have so many people to prove wrong and when i simply can't, i am not feeling good.
Friends should be a pillar of strength and support for you but i simply cannot understand why friends need to compete with each other.That's one of the saddest things for human beings.Does victory over your closest friends gives you a sense of satisfaction? If yes, you have a problem and you need to question your heart.It's never my intention to compete with my friends but this kind of mentality is instilled in all of us and i realised it's very saddening.It's human nature to get an edge over others but is this really important?
Labels: I am just so disappointed
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