Monday, July 12, 2010
This probably sums up what the 2010 World Cup was all about.
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KING PAULWhat makes the World Cup so special? On a personal note, it is special because it only comes once every 4 years. Every 4 years, the changes in my life are massive. During the last world cup, i was still looking for people to help me place my bets but 4 years later today, I am able to do it freely. I really do not know what will I be in 2014. I will be 24 by then.
So this major distraction is over, I skipped school today but there's no need to provide any excuses because nobody will believe anybody is sick today. The battles in school will be tougher and tougher but I will face it with renewed resillience. Oh well, what a tough week this is going to be.So I have drawn up a couple of aims for the next few weeks.
1. Not to be late and to be present for all Chua Hai Eng lessons
2. Not to be late and to be present for all Balbir Singh lessons
3. Not to be late and to be present for all Jessie Tan lessons
4. Hand up 90% of my tutorials!
i just have to find strength to stand up against my challenges although i do not know where to gather it.
I need something to look forward to.
12:24 AM
12:24 AM
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Yes i know many of you have seen this before but i just saw this during my GEMS lesson a few weeks ago and i like it so much! So don't mind watching it again!
Could I say the worst is over for me? No, I can't.
Well, life has been a little bit better and i am more relaxed now but still, everyday remains a mystery.
It's going to be a very treacherous week coming up and i know its going to be a hard hard battle.
Sun Tzu says, "Put a soldier deep into enemy's territories and when he realised he have no choice and nothing more to lose, he will fight to his death"
I must be a soldier and i am fighting for my own cause.
Labels: when something becomes everything to me
10:21 AM
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Nothing seems to be going right for me so far. Life is simply making a mockery out of me.
I had been feeling a little bit better, just a little bit better but then again, it seems like none of the problems have been solved. I've seen what i should not see and I cannot say what i want to say and I can only eat what i want to eat to a certain extent. ITS A JOKE ISIN'T IT?!
I've been trying to draw positives and just try my best to look for the light but no, i just can't seem to find it.
Sometimes it's really best to be ignorant because knowing and seeing some things could be so heartbreaking. Well, I just have to blame it on myself being too emotional.
I just do not know how much i have left in my tank.
Thanks to those who have been offering words of encouragement and i must emphasize that i am not trying to gain sympathy or attract attention because i don't need them and all i want is a platform to vent my frustrations.
10:43 AM
Monday, July 5, 2010
Just when i thought my life could no longer get worst, it just did. Bad things simply comes hand in hand.
You see, i actually cannot state everything right here but i feel worst than crap now. How much more a human can take? Nothing, absoutely nothing is going right. Bad news and bad things comes in pair.
I have to beg and plead and to me, that makes me a loser. I hate losing my dignity but i have to do that for some reasons. Being a student nowadays is tough, really tough.
I hereby declare that i am at breaking point. I used to tell others, tomorrow might be better because you will never know what is going to happen tomorrow but the question is, HOW DO I GET PAST TODAY?!
To be honest, this morning i really feel like crying. I feel like finding a place to scream and vent my frustrations. There is so much in my mind and I cannot sleep at night. There is simply nothing for me to look forward to.
I do not know what I did to deserve all these. I love to help others in whatever i know and can do well, agree my friends? I give up my seats to elders when i take public transport and I love my loved ones, just that i don't express it in words. This is truly the lowest point of my 2010.
The only positive factor for me now is that it gets so low that the only way now is up. I just have to soldier on.
Labels: I just wanna have a breather
12:37 AM
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Shit just continues to rain on me.
1. ITouch spoilt
2. Spectacles almost broke
3. Laptop exploded
All this in the space of 2 days, this is really shit.
Sometimes, it really frustrates me. It really does. When i wanna give my sincere best, i can't. I have to see others putting only half my effort and get so close to succeeding.
Time is not on my side, some things cannot wait and I know I have to act fast but on the current situation, I CAN'T.
People say don't wait till it becomes too late and yes, i am afraid. I am sure this will be one last huge sincere effort and I really don't wanna be disappointed and anguished.
Labels: can shit stop happening?
10:28 AM
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Sometimes, i really wished time could stop and sometimes i really wished i could choose my poly course all over again.
Nowadays I really dread going to school.You know, every single day since school reopen, I've been lying on my bed before sleeping and all i think about is what the hack will happen a year later. When i wake up, I think about what will the lecturer teach today? How's my retest gonna be in 2 weeks time? How am i going to cope with the tutorials?
Sounds weird right? I can say i absoutely ignore my studies but here i am letting it revolve around me. Well, i guess the real reasons were not STUDIES and marks itself. Education will not kill me but factors around me possibly will. Sometimes, I am so sick and tired and I just feel like taking a few days break from school.
Fortunately, today was fine. It was still a rather productive day which passed by well.
So for those who have yet to choose your poly course, please do it really carefully, if not you will just end up like me, SUFFER FOR 3 YEARS AT LEAST.
10:52 AM