Friday, March 5, 2010
Peking Duck and Suckling Pig from Ion!You know, for me, It have come to a point where i asked myself, who is/are my best friends? It's skeptical to call friends around me my best friends. I am not a person who are afraid of losing friends and I am not afraid that I have no friends either. Honestly, wherever I go and whatever I do, I will make new friends easily.
I used to have many good friends but what the hell is wrong with all of them? Some go crazy and get paranoid for no apparent reason, some have weird habits and actions, some became stupid, some have found their other half and off they go and some found other friends. As we start to drift apart with these friends, new ones come along. As a sentimental boy/man, I definitely missed the good times I had with them. Of course I will try to look for greener pastures but at the mean time, I am simply pissed off and quite disappointed with some of the things.
It's funny when I made one huge effort to go down to town alone to get something for a friend who truly deserved my efforts but well, till now, I still couldn't get the gift across. I do certain things to make myself feel better and to let the other party knows that I appreciate whatever that has been done. When my sincerity don't get appreciated for whatever reasons, I feel disrespected.
Once you are in my good books, I will keep you there but if you do or say something that makes my mind eliminate you, I can assure you, you will not be back. It's strange because I don't waste my time on anything that I am not interested. So if my mind can't accept it, neither can I.
Nowadays, when I want to go somewhere I need to think, hey who can I call? I don't mind going alone and in fact, I love to be alone sometimes. Sometimes, when I find good food and tries to find company, I couldn't get any.Even if possible, I got to start spamming smses or plans get distrupted every now and then. It's really disappointing. There are people who appreciates me as a friend and I must say a Thank You to you but there are people whom I appreciate very much as friends who are treating me as a tool or a plant or a piece of cloth.
The worst thing I cannot accept is when I helped somebody to do something, I don't get appreciated.
1:52 PM