Sunday, June 6, 2010
It's really funny to see different people affecting my life in diffrent aspects.
How can i let somebody which i have no liking to revolve around my life? How could I let that person infiltrate my life and affect me? It's time that I should show some hostility but I know not much. I don't like to be hold back when I am about to go all out but i know i can't in this situation. I can only say, do not affect the life of others when you screwed yours. It is a tragedy for a human when he/she have a problem and yet they do not have a single clue on what's the problem. Sometimes when I look at you, you are no longer living for yourself. That is an absolute shame.
I grew up in a family who literally teaches me how to gamble and of course, I like gambling.Well I mean its not a shame, out of 2 Singaporeans, you probably 1 who loves gambling. If not for my own thinking, I could have jolly well ended up with debts at such a young age. I love the thrill of gambling and i enjoy them. However, when it starts to affect my life and mood, its time to start thinking if i need professional help. Maybe its still not as serious as it seems because I still bet with caution and execute self control. Now the World Cup is coming, I am sure that i will be throwing money in because its the World Cup, its an event when people dies from it. Perhaps I am addicted to gambling because that is currently the only way I can prove to others that I am good. Haha, sad isin't it? Yes, sometimes i do laugh at myself.
Whatever it is, my ultimate dream is still strike gold in a Toto and 4D. Above all, I believe in a thing call destiny. In any way u can think about it, life is still a gamble.
There's one more thing affecting me but for now, it shall be kept as a golden secret.
11:49 AM